I am the baby and the old woman in my dream

Sadhguru
Something will come up.
If everything is right, one thing will crop up and go on bothering you, needling you.
It is always like that. Otherwise you forget ur limitations, so something will come up.
That's ur karma. The karma, thru a process of bondage, is finding expression for u as a reminder of ur emancipation.
If u r unaware, u get entangled wit it
If u r aware, it becomes the way to ur liberation.

Soul - yeap, do appreciate my karma. If without karma, it would take even longer for me to cultivate my awareness

Woke up at 5 am, with a nightmare.
I dream that an old woman dying with blood and pass me a baby asking me to take care of it. Then she told me that there is a group of people who give birth n sell their child.
Then I saw the group, nasty group who asked the old woman to show her breast. The other guy asked if he is keen on her n he said no, but he want to keep her in fear and will rape her if needs be.
With that I woke up.
Not sure why. But when I woke up, I asked myself if I can hav compassion for d evil guy.
Then 2nd tot came, everyone is either an extension of love or asking for love.

With that I woke up completely and wrote this in my blackberry ;
Deep inside I think I cannot be loved and hence I also think some people cannot be loved too.
Its because part of me think m not lovable and hence i can believe I be rejected.
All - extension of love or cry for love.

Father, again You have astounded me. I was supposed to listen to Way of Heart last week but skipped due to sathsang and then this incident with my colleague and friend happen and I on cd No. 5 which state about if we can't forgive others, we can't forgive ourselves cos it is our own perception that we need to unveil.

Father, thanks. This would have been a small issue which I would have ignored previously. But now that I have acknowledged my hidden fear that I am unloved, am willing to look at the incidents as catalyst.

Ask and it is given
Magical Creation Box - I like that cos I seldom ask for things I want, I just asked things I don't want don't come into my life.
Earlier I was thinking of window shopping. This might be d way.

Father, thank u. Just now I started on my Magical Creation Box and my first thing was I want to know what I truly want.

After the Magical Creation Box, the next topic give me the insight of how to find out what I truly want. Amen. I will do this tonite. Love you.
Pg 156
Write what u desire for every topic.
Then write what is the rationale for ur desire.


Ask and it is given
Why u want something defines the essence of what u want .... the Universe always delivers to you the vibrational essence of ur desire.

Abraham
Go forth and attract life experience to help u decide what u want. And once u have decided, give tot only to that. Most of ur time will be spent collecting data that will help u to decide what it is u want, but ur real work is to decide what u want and then focus upon it, for it is through focusing upon what u want that u will attract it. That is the process of creating.

Soul - suddenly it came to me. The old woman who was part of d gang, decided that the group was too evil n also hav bad intention on her, despite her being in d group, they r not her friend. She escaped with d child and gave it to someone for safekeeping.
I tot perhaps that I am finally freed from my demon and now in safe hands.
It is now my choice to choose love or fear. To extend love or fear.

Another tot, d old wounded woman is me. Cos if not me, how cld I hav transport myself to feel d evil man.

Is a long journey, I am finally freed