Suffering is to make u aware. Suffering is a blessing in disguise

This morning, first time in weeks, I finally woke up before alarm clock. I woke up ok abt 5.15 am and felt good that I broke thru d lethargic. I already expected that after yesterday massive clearing during meditation, I would be fine this morning. Father, thank u.

Ask and it is given
When u are not aware of the connection between ur thoughts, subsequent feelings that those tot evoke, and the manifestations that are occurring, u cannot know where u are in relationship to that something which you desire.

Its when u r focused on d result rather than feeling ur way within ur thoughts, it is easy to lose ur way.

Soul - yday meditation made me aware that my deepest pain and tot is that I believe no one loves me.
And here my desire is to be loved. So contradictory. Whenever I faced challenges, I tot I m made to acknowledge I am sad, made to feel suffering, I tot I was unlovable.
In the end, all d challenges arise for me to acknowledge my pain, my belief and so that I can change my belief.

If I were to ask anyone, loads of people think I am lovable. I am loved.

Sorrow. The pain is not to make you sad. That's where people go on missing .... This pain is just to make u more alert. To make u aware! And when u aware, misery disappears! Time of great sorrow have the potential to be times of transformation. But in order for the transformation to happen, we must go deep, to the very roots of our pain, and experience it as it is, without blame or self-pity.

Abundance - allowing the fullness of the whole human being to shine forth.

Soul - I finally got it. I used to interpret this as to make us know we feeling wretched. To make us humble so we remove arrogance. To make us face pain n feel unloved.
It is to make us aware, go deep into d pain and see what is the deep seated belief. The one that causes us to feel unlovable whenever there is challenges, unloving environment

So, I am lovable. I am loved and I attract loving environment.

Father, I can meditate anywhere now. Last Sunday, d meditation in d park in early mornin is so good. So peaceful.

Suddenly a tot came. When d sexual molest happen, I wanted to cry, to be sad but my mom won't let me acknowledge my sadness, my guilt, my fear. When I was suppressed, I tot I was unloved and not worth it to be listened to.
Me, as an adult, I have done d same. I have controlled, oppressed, suppressed, ignore my feelings. No wonder d feeling of unlovability, feeling of worthlessness continue to perpetuate. Because of this, attracted unloving circumstances and people into my life.

Father, I love U. Alas, I know U love me too!

Going with the flow - when this card appears in a reading, it is an indication that you are able to float now, trusting that life will support u in your relaxation and take u exactly where it wants u to go. Allow this feeling of trust and relaxation to grow more and more; everything is happening exactly as it should.

Soul - Yeap, that's how I feel today.

Ask and it is given
You make whatever you give ur attention to .... your Truth! And so it is extremely beneficial to focus primarily on the way you feel while giving only scant attention to the manifestations as they are unfolding, for whenever u r giving ur primary attention to things as they are, you are hindering the expansion of what-is.

Soul. Part of me wonder is this is escaping. So many issue at office. Another tot, they r not my issue. It is d CEO's issue. I only need to do the action plan and etc.
So, I focus on me being loving, and attracting loving people and circumstances to me.
Even if worst case scenario, downsized. I can go on part timer.

Ask and it is given
Once y learn abt Law of Attraction and aware of the way ur thoughts feel, u will never again feel fear abt unwanted things jumping into your experience.
You will know nothing jump into ur experiences without ur invitation.

Soul - my belief that no one loves me, keep on attracting challenges, unloving circumstances and people to me. D karma of feeling unloved keep on coming.
I am stopping it NOW.

Ask and it is Given
The entire Universe exists to inspire the next new desire.
If u tried to avoid ur own desires, u r attempting to move contrary to Universal forces.
And if u r able to suppress a desire here n there, more desires are continually evolving within you.
And so, nothing in all of the Universe is more natural than ur continuing desire.


Ask and it is given
The basis of life is freedom; and the result of life is expansion _ but the purpose of life is joy.
And that is why the main event has never been the manifestation.
It is always been the way you feel in the moment.
You come into physical realm of contrast to define what is wanted (to know ur desire), to connect with the Energy that creates worlds, and to flow it toward ur object of attention - not because the objects of attention are important but because the act of flowing Energy is essential to life.

Soul - wow.. I hav been focused on manifestation.