Contentment - on my own

Dec 19 Eve

Great discussion with regional boss. I be getting the best of both world. Earlier I did have bit of worry on the risk of front end job but I waived it. Now I am in charge of both current and new company. In current company, they will hire a FC instead. I be CFO for both. (Jan 17...now is FD and not CFO..probably SS's suggestion as he don't want a salary hike)

Great outcome and looks like Five of Diamonds in Jupiter Ruling and Three of Spades in Jupiter Destiny is true.

It is only with current regional boss blessing that I can have both. Amen.

Today card Ace of Clubs, means a new beginning, a new way of thinking and communicating with others. Great I don't have to leave current company and my staff has room for expansion.

It is night time and still no call from him. Looks like that doesn't work. Mmm, I guess he has so many such requests that he wants only to return business calls.

Tot of my Osho card's Internal influence:
Aloneness is the presence of oneself. It is very positive. It is a presence, an overflowing presence and there is no need for anybody.
When there is no "significant other" in our lives, we can either be lonely or enjoy the freedom that solitude brings.
Be a light unto urself. Ultimately, each of us must develop within ourselves the capacity to make our way through the darkness without any companions or guide.

Soul
Yea, I remember. This moment is inevitable. He is not calling. So, this moment I accept we won't be talking to each other.

Sadhguru
Desire is a natural longing. Love is an emotional expression of that desire.

Love is a longing in u to become one with something or somebody. Emotionally, u r trying to make what is two into one. Ur longing to become one with something is always happening at all levels.

If it finds expression in a very basic physical way, we call this either food or sex. Food and sex are just this - u want to make something a part of u.

If it finds a mental expression, it is generally labeled as 'greed' or 'conquest' in society. By acquiring knowledge, or power or property or any other thing.

If it finds an emotional expression, u call it love or devotion, because what is the object of devotee? He wants to become one with his object of devotion. What is the object of love? It is to become one with the person whom u think u love.

So, the same thing is happening on all levels, u r longing to be a little more that what u r, that is all. All these things can be inspiring factors to growth, but none of these things are an end by themselves.

They cannot take u to the goal because love is an endless longing; u never achieve the oneness. At many moments u think u r one, but the next moment it is not so. Do u not have enough experience with life? Do u still believe it is going to happen!

So, these different expressions are fine; they are beautiful, but they will not find fulfillment. They are very sweet, but they will not find fulfillment and can turn very bitter.

So, because we see that expression through the physical body, through the mind or through the emotion does not find fulfillment, we are working on ur energies.

With energies, u can very easily find fulfillment, because here u do not need anybody else's cooperation. If u want to physically fulfill this, or mentally fulfill this or emotionally fulfill this, u need the cooperation of the whole world in some way. But energy-wise, if u want to fulfill it, u do not need anybody's cooperation; it is just u.

U r the only reliable person. U r the only person whom u never have doubts because u know u can rely upon ur well-being. So, if u go the energy way, fulfillment will come much more easily because u do not need anyone's cooperation.