Settling down with Z (34) - he is opening up

Dec 30
Sadhguru
Imagination is one freedom u have. So, u should make ur imagination pleasant.

Soul
Yea, I would do that. I have been creating negative imagination instead of positive ones.

Today practice was ok. I was only laughing at the flying asanas. Shakti and shambavi was fine. Nowadays I am able to catch hold of my tots.

Tot of sending msg to Z but hold back cos worried he knows I think about him. Then I tot, he already knows I love him, so don't have to hide. I also send him the msg on why I love him. I love the goodness in him. He also reminds me of my mom.

Of course no reply as he doesn't know what to say. Yes, would be commitment and no will make me put off. So, the best thing Next time he will tell me to change to liking instead.

Father, me expressing myself. Perhaps this is what my card is saying - Listening to my heart. Just be simple.


Dec 30 Eve (Change in Z)
Father, I am not sure but I think my declaration of love for Z caught him.

Today his card was Five of Spades and this 52 days till Feb is Nine of Spades.

He called me, if I recall this would be his first call on his own. We chatted on his mom, his business and then he asked me out on a date, a movie. I was surprised but happy.

But later he msg to said he can't make it as he got business meeting. I am surprised but I was fine. Perhaps its because there was no expectation on my side.

(Jan 27 - He is opening up because I become vulnerable and open up first. I must remember I am the Sun in this relationship)