Awesome Shakti Chalana Kriya again

Feb 21

What an explosion

Woke up 5.30 am cos slept after 12.30am yesterday.

Did Bhoota Suddhi followed by singing guru pooja. Today guru pooja I was laughing. Mmm can't recall doing that.
Did one cycle of Yoga Namaskar and one cycle of Surya kriya went in deep. Followed by asanas. Today asanas was good. The sitting posture with both legs I finally can rest comfortably in the posture. I was even singing. This has never happen before singing in hata yoga.
Shakti was awesome. During Kapala Bhakti after third cycle I was so energised that hands start to clap non stop and I was laughing and head shaking   This had never happen before.
Towards the end snake breathing for a long period and dancing and singing.
My first tot was to share with Y but then realised he is gone. I cried cos I miss him. I cry for a long while. Then just contentment.

After that I just messaged Y. But his phone is switched off. First tot was he reject me but second tot not only me. I recalled he said no phone during ashram. Anyway I did love him and I will love again. For the first time I am able to see there is an abundance of love.

Just had my lunch. Father, I m feeling love within. Love for myself. Just a sense of sweet loving feeling. Just feel everything is okay. There is a sense of peace enveloping me.

Maturity by Osho
Whenever you understand that u have missed life, the first principle to be brought back is innocence. Drop ur knowledge, forget ur scriptures, forget ur religions, ur theologies, ur philosophies. Be both again, become innocent - and it is in ur hands. Clean ur mind of all that is not known by u, all that is borrowed from traditions, convention. All that given to u by others.
Once again be simple, once again be a child. And this miracle is possible by meditation. Meditation is a simply a strange surgical method that cuts u away from all that is not yours and saves that which is your authentic being.

Soul
Now finally getting it.
Feeling reborn at age 46


Mmm today card was Queen of Hearts. Very true as I was crying out for him this morning. Today a Saturn day.