Osho - growing old is not growing up

Feb 20
Woke up at 3,50 am. Body is okay as I did 15 min of pre-sleep breathing at the shrine.

Did Bhoota Shuddi and sang guru pooja. Did 3 cycles of yoga Namaskar and 3 cycles of Surya kriya. In the third cycle I was in deep, can't even open my eyes. Breathing was good in arashidharna
Shakti was good, now can finally feel the intensity. Shambavi great. Towards the end lower body moving non stop and breathe comes out gushing.
During the practices had tot of Isha issues. Just now chat with P and got some concur direction. Alas me dealt with Two of Hearts and got Nine of Spades as result.

Maturity - the responsibility of being oneself by Osho
Man is born to achieve life but it all depends on him. He can miss it. He can grow old moving towards death. Growing old, any animal can do that. Growing up is the prerogative of human beings. Only a few claim the right.
Growing up means moving every moment deeper into the principle of life, it means going further away from death - not toward death. The deeper u go into life, the more u understand the immortality within u.

For growing up, just watch a tree. There is a balance. The higher the tree goes, the deeper the roots will go. In life, growing up means growing deep within urself - that's where ur roots are.

Soul
Sadhguru talked about intensity. He talked about one big desires. My greatest and longest and current desire is self mastery.