Osho - maturity is accepting the responsibility of being oneself, whatsoever the cost

Feb 24

Couldn't sleep last night. Not disturbed but somehow eyes can't close. Just feel alert. Around 2 am I felt my eyes not really close. I finally slept and woke up 3.50 am.
Just feeling bit tired and I slept back but couldn't sleep. So woke up again at 4.15 am.

Did Bhoota Shuddi and sang guru pooja. On guru pooja, singing slowly.
Did one cycle of Yoga Namaskar and 3 cycle of Surya kriya. Breathing was lovely but I stop earlier cos not much time.
Then I did Shakti but abridged version due to menses. Me now cautious these days. Shakti was good. Got some tots but it does not distract me from Shakti. Shambavi was good. Towards the end contented silence in arashidharna. So peaceful.

Maturity by Osho
As u become more sensitive, life becomes bigger. It is not a small pond; it is oceanic. It is not confined to u and ur wife and children. The whole existence becomes ur family.
Meditation will bring u sensitivity, a great sense of belonging to the world.
Secondly meditation will bring u a great silence because all rubbish knowledge is gone. Thoughts that are part of the knowledge are gone too ... an immense silence and u are surprised this silence is the only music there is.
In the oceanic state, the body takes a certain posture. As ur silence grows, ur friendliness, ur love grows; ur life becomes moment to moment dance, a joy, a celebration.

Soul
Today I looked at my face. It seems different. It seems to be a face of a lovely woman. For the first time I see myself as feminine. This is despite my short hair.  I think that's what s saw that day, femininity and she described it as loving.

For me when I m in meditation zone, songs and dance arise in me. An expression of my inner joy.



(Mar 15 - St and Sj said that I have grown loving and feminine)

Maturity
Life should be a continuous celebration, a Festival of Lights the whole year round. Only then u can grow up, can u blossom.

Soul
Sadhguru said the suffering will not seek. If u have not known ur joy, u can't seek for beyond.

Maturity
Zen master - Lin Chi
There is nothing that is great and there is nothing that is small; it all depend on u, what u make of it.
Start with meditation, and things will go on growing in u - silence, serenity, blissfulness, sensitivity.
And whatever comes out of meditation, try to bring it out in life. Share it, because everything shared grows fast.

Soul
Mmm suddenly tot that sharing will deepen the experience. I know Sadhguru won't design something that is not necessary. The fact that he have sharing in Sathsang must have its usage.
Just as he has sharing in the lap of master.

Maturity
Be the person you are. Never try to be another, and u will become mature. Maturity is accepting the responsibility of being oneself, whatsoever the cost. Risking all to be oneself, that's what maturity is.

Maturity means the same as innocence, only eying one difference; it is innocence reclaimed; it is innocence recaptured.
Every society, up to now, has been a corruptive influence on every child. All cultures have depended on exploiting the innocence of the child, exploiting the child, on making him a slave, on conditioning him for their own purposes, for their own ends - political, social, ideological. The priest and the politicians have been in deep conspiracy.
The moment the child starts becoming part of society he starts losing something immensely valuable; he starts losing contact with God. He becomes more and more hung up in the head, he forgets all about the heart - and the heart is the bridge that leads to being. Without the heart, u cannot reach ur own being - it is impossible. Society condemned all lovers the ages simply because love is not of the head, it is of the heart. A man who is capable of love is sooner or later going to discover his being - and once a person discover.

Soul
Been in dilemma since yesterday of sharing with Y on the video I watched yesterday. I bought the DVD a few months ago but forgot to watch it. Only did so yesterday. Again wanted to share with him but was bit worried how he sees me and also is none of my business if he doesn't know the answer. Guess I don't want to lose my pride.
A tot came - live fearlessly. So I just messaged Y:
I once asked u whether Indians has anything to breakthrough in Isha path. U didn't answer me. I found the answer in Sadhguru's DVD's Cracking the human software. U guys have loads to breakthrough but I don't see it happening. U may want to watch the DVD.

Soul
No wonder its the non Indian that is getting in deeper into the path. For the Indian, it is still cultural.