Breakthrough by making peace with the past

Jul 10

Had a good brainstorming session with my team. They were quite good. My team is coming together as we embark into operations.

Met E and we have a good chat; just like old times.

From Facebook
What other people say is a reflection of them not you.

Soul
L was bashing me in chat group. I still remain cordial and assert my view. I knew there be back lash but by this time I just proceed.
True enough the backlash came in the form of lengthy nasty messages from her.
I m surprised at myself. I was able to see it as her issue.
This time I take it as my role to stop her behaviour. And since I released my role as Sathsang guide, we are equal playing field. 

S said he won't quit being a guide. It is for life. He also said it is now very difficult to get into becoming a guide. I felt a slight pull if I made a mistake but I shrugged it off as I knew I truly not keen to be a guide.

Today many breakthrough
1. Met my ex boss, E and we have a good chat, like old times. After the chat, I felt a nice contentment in my heart. No regrets. Just happy we each found our own.

2. Overcome my fear of backlash from L. Reported her to S and he said to remove her. Anyway let her be.
Suddenly a tot came; she never feel guilt for sending out the vicious msg; so need not feel hurt for receiving. Truly evolved.

3. Finally talk to Z after so long. He teased me and said this is the first time I was bashed. Trying to joke and I was bit irritated by his voice. I don't like his voice. Suddenly I remember I didn't like his voice earlier but later was okay as I fall in love him Now that I m over him, I can see his voice as what it was; not easy to my ears.

Mmmm this is the breakthrough from the past.

Just deleted myself from Sathsang coordination group. Not keen to do this. If I to do volunteering, preference will be for oversea coordinator. Firstly cos I m a frequent visitor to ashram, secondly it require prompt email response, thirdly to keep database. So all within my scope.  This is truly a cut.