Being fearless in personal relationship

Jul 11 mor

Checking out my blog an saw others reading this
Difficult to react to my anger due to validation; written back in Oct 2013.

I wrote it then as I was receiving abusive messages from L over me being a bad person, me being bad guide and etc.
Back then I couldn't react as I was afraid of more abuses, I was afraid due to my position as Sathsang guide and core lead.
Now no more reason to hold on.
Of all persons in the world, she is the last one that I need validation from.
She was the last card...


Finally let go of my karmic Two of Diamonds.

My Daily Card
The Ace of Diamonds

The Ace of Diamonds means the desire for money or the birth of a new way of earning money. All Aces represent new beginnings, a desire for something that starts a new cycle of creating. Aces are the representatives of pure creative energy.
Diamonds represent our value systems, the things that we like or dislike, treasure or discard. So, the Ace of Diamonds means that we experience the birth of a new value or that we suddenly like or want something that we didn't before.
Because diamonds are commonly associated with money and our work, the Ace of Diamonds can mean the beginning of a new financial enterprise or the desire to obtain money for a specific purpose.

Soul
Definitely new value. I need not suffer alone.
I also able to share her abusive messages with teacher and close friends. This time I am not afraid of L's threat. My friends know me. Old teacher know me..new teacher I am not sure but this is informative for her...as I am sure same thing will happen with others. But others may not dare to confront her, unlike me.
Finally being fearless in Isha.

Now updating blog and read this.
May 23 aft
Was updating my blog for April and saw this.
From Facebook
As above, so below
As we absorb more Light, there are some effects to be aware of. As vibration continues to rise, all systems, both internal and external, of ourselves that are not based on love and cooperation, will eventually collapse. You may feel like you are being shaken up and shaken loose of what you are holding on to.
Sometimes, out of fear, our ego tries to preserve itself, falsely promising control and protection. As we transmute our old beliefs and habits, our relationships shift and our life moves into the chaos of change to allow space for the transformation.

Soul
Alas let go of L.
It wasn't easy but I am fearless.
No response from P and the close friends. Yes, they may see this as not loving but may judge me.
What is important is I can now share..
If they don't like this part of me..so be it.
It is now more important to seek my own validation.


From facebook
As our vibration increases, our shadow and egoic patterns may become glaringly obvious. They are being revealed so we can transcend them. Now is the time of transparency.
To make an easier, more gentle transition to the new frequency and paradigm, allow the fullness of your shadow. Then be responsible for it. Parts of us will continue to pass away. Give yourself the gift of clean deaths. Make space for the new adventures.

Soul
Mmm...now I have given up my image...of being a kind compassionate person.
Me taking a passive stand has not stopped L.
M now taking an assertive stand and barred her from my phone.
For the first time in my life I am barring my phone.

Anyway, thanks to her for reminding me I truly don't want to hold any lead role in local Isha.
Maybe the travel...