North Node in Aries - resentment is a signal for clear self-expression

Dec 29
Woke up 3.55 am. Was feeling not so great cos woke up a few times during the night due to flu.
Have decided not to go to my cousin's wedding ceremony. It's okay, if others who are much closer can say no, okay for me too.

Besides I don't want to miss this weekend dinner. Last year I said yes and opted out last minute due to flu too. So want to recover so I can attend.

Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by Angamardhana. It was quite good. Did one cycle of Surya kriya followed by nice breathing meditation. Shakti was quite good, focused Kapala Bhakti. Very little tots. Shambavi was good.
Alarm rang at 7.05 am, got to wake up.
Anyway, stayed on till 7.10 am.

Have adjusted my alarm to the former 3.48 am. That's the time I required to complete sadhana properly.


Aries North node
They become resentful if they think something isn't fair. If they feel resentment, its a signal to pull back and recharge. It also signals a need to express their emotion: "I seem to be feeling resentful, so I am going to take some time by myself and work it out.
Honest expression validates and strengthens their sense of identity. It also gives the other person a chance to become aware of Aries North node's need and boundaries. He cannot expect others to be as sensitive as he is. But once he openly express himself, he can tell from the other person's response how much self-assertion will be necessary.


Soul
Sound advice for me too.
That's what happen with me in local Isha. That's what happen with Z too.
A tot just came. I was seeking validation from others. Now I can see that only I can truly validate myself.
Such irony, outside others tot I self centred. Well not so.

Mind was saying that if I didn't snap and wait for Z to come back. I said nope cos I be too sad waiting. Besides if he cares he would say nope and stay in when he knows I was so sad.
Just as Y stay in to accompany his wife eventhough he wants to go for the Isha meet.
So no regrets. It was meant to be. Besides he got himself hitched within 3 months. So let's not go there.

Aries North node
They are learning to be assertive in a constructive way that promotes fairness through clear self-expression. They frequently feel let down by others.
They need to take responsibility for themselves in their interactions with others.
They truly do love to give - it's their nature. But their motive needs to be love, not creating co-dependence. Their giving must be pure, without expectation of result, in order for them to be free of disappointment in their relationships.
If they find they are giving in an imbalanced way, they can openly bargain with their partner so that both people's needs are equitably met. It's when they expect others to reciprocate, without letting them know exactly what they expect, they go off track - they need to give their silent expectations a voice!
Its their job to ensure things are fair by asserting themselves and letting others know what they expect in return for their giving. If they do this they will feel happy because they were the ones who ensured that fairness came about.
This build their confidence. Rather than being displeased with others, they will be pleased with themselves.

Soul
Truly my Seven of Hearts lesson. Now got the full answers.
Mmm going in deeper