Kailash and Sannidhi - old urges comes back, for us to choose again.

Dec 28

Had a good sleep yesterday due to flu pill.
Woke up feeling fresh at 4 am despite sleeping at 1 am. Of course, discounting the 4 hours late afternoon nap I took due to effect from flu medication.  Took awhile to sleep back.
Finally woke up upon alarm at 6.30 am.
Mind is delaying but body said okay.
I liisten to the body and woke up.

Did 2 rounds of walk plus 7 session of staircase. Sweating and feels good.

Met the a few friends I know from Kailash trip.
M was telling me of late, he has been having urges to drink liquor again. He has stopped three years ago.
He stopped when he received beating in his dream when he was in meditation retreat. I told him that the decision was not made voluntarily back then and now decision to stop liquor has to be conscious.
Mmm, suddenly I also shared that recently I too have urges to eat meat.
The other day, looking at the roast pork and grilled pork, I wonder why should I stop eating and forgo the pleasure. Anyway, I didn't eat.
I also shared about me being fearful of water, after overcoming it many years ago.
Its like going back to the past, going through my lesson again.
Perhaps that's why I keep on having memory of Z again.

For me the reason to forgo meat was due to cholesterol scare back then. Well, now I know there are better alternative for lowering cholesterol. Mmm, but my body doesn't like meat; it doesn't' digest well.