North Node in Taurus - loyalty in relationship

Jan 8
Didn't sleep well. The special foot cream cause some itchiness when I put them on my knees. Also my nephew cries.
So at 3.48 am alarm, I woke up reluctantly. Body was fine despite not sleeping well. But mind was chatting. Wanted to doze but body is awake. So just got up after 3 or 4 minutes of pondering. Main thing was I didn't do Angamardhana on last Tuesday so should not miss this too.
Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch.
Angamardhana was quite good especially the lying down asanas. Also hero postures no longer painful.
Surya Kriya good feet alignment.
Breathing was okay.
Shakti was good and focused.
Shambavi was nice.


North node in Taurus by Jan Spiller
Loyalty in rship
Loyalty and commitment are very important to them.
They are learning that loyalty between two people in a rship is based on both people being loyal to themselves. They need to establish a bond of loyalty to self before they can expect to be loyal to another in a healthy way. For example, loyalty to self implies honestly communicating; "I don't feel comfortable with this" rather than invalidating personal needs to adapt to the partner. It implies taking a position of integrity - based on an inner feeling of what is correct  - standing in one place, rather than standing in different places depending on where the most validation seems likely.
Through living their own values, these folks allow the right person to respond to them and support them. This means being willing to risk losing their partner. If they remain true to themselves, honestly revealing what their inner conflict level is telling them, either the person will validate them by coming closer or the other will leave and make room for someone more appropriate.

This is one of the most effective ways they can take care of the needy part within; discovering for themselves what their needs are, acknowledging that those needs are important and then clearly communicating those needs to see how the other person responds.
The idea is to move the give-and-take of rships out of the realm of expectations and into the realm of open disclosure, verbalising what is important as the rship progresses. Then they can determine whether both partners want to meet each other needs and make each other happy on the consistent basis that they need.

Soul
Amen.
I did do that with Y and we ended separate way soon cos Y is not into me due to different race and I m much older than him. Found out that his mother is just two years older than me. She married young.

North node in Taurus
Sometimes they are afraid to reveal what they need for fear of appearing selfish. Actually when they don't reveal what they want, they deprive of their partner of the opportunity to make them happy. Also if they don't communicate their boundaries  and let others know what they need, people begin to lose respect for them.

Soul
With Z, I communicate my boundary of no children and need for financial security but I didn't communicate I want to be married to him back then.
Never mind, after my experience with Y, I knew Z not meant for me. Apart from physical compatibility I need mental compatibly for long term rship.