North Node in Taurus - waiting for mate

Jan 6
Woke up around 3 am, throat was too dry. Slept back and woke upon alarm at 4.30 am but feeling sleepy so I slept back and wake up 4.53 am.

Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by cat stretch. Then later one cycle of Surya Kriya. Breathing meditation was good.
Shakti was deep and focused. Shambavi was nice.

North node in Taurus
Other sensual experiences that are good 'karma' for these folks include giving or receiving a massage or being pampered with a manicure, facial, body wrap and etc. When they spend time giving themselves physical rewards and sensual pleasure, they won't need much from others.

Soul
Always enjoyed massage, facial and manicure.
The gang all wanted to do sadhana on Sunday morning. I told them nope cos that's my Sabbatical day. Besides I enjoy the walk in the park and having breakfast with my mom.

Yesterday was full moon, so switched the Cd on Sadhguru shatakam. So nice. Then I chant Linga Struthi for 3 cycles as promised. Later I did the lying down posture and tears fall unexpectedly. Then I knew I was feeling sad that my partner not with me. I cried for my partner and wished he already has a Linga yantra and when we combined, we have the whole ashram with us. Tears flowed.
Then a tot came. I am glad that I have my shrine. Besides if I wanted Linga yantra, I can get on my own. Need not depend on anyone for what I want. With that the tears stopped.

North node in Taurus
They are born looking for their soul mates. Their challenge in this life time is to focus less on bonding and more on building their own values - then they will attract the right mate.

Soul
That's explain my wish for a partner despite passing my prime age, despite everything.

North node in Taurus
From past lives, these folks are accustomed to giving everything and having the other reciprocate. But in this incarnation, much to the native's surprise, it's not in their charts for others to take care of them in the same co-dependent way. This is the universe's way of helping them to break abusive co-dependency and learn to be more self-contained.

Soul
No wonder life time challenge of Seven of Hearts.
So true. I gave to Z, Y and P. Alas no return.

North node in Taurus
Deep in their hearts, more than anything in the world, they want a soul mate - that special person to travel with through life in a state of mutual vulnerability, commitment and empowerment.
To have this dream come true, they need to first experience being complete within themselves. When they no longer need another person to make them whole, only then they can attract the right partner.

Soul
A tall order.

North node in Taurus
They feel acutely lonely sometimes, aching for their mate. They long for the comfort of consistent, dependable companionship and this is a lifetime where loyal companionship is their birthright. But as with everything else in this incarnation, they must earn it.
As they work to experience their own wholeness and direction and become a powerful river in their own right, they can merge with another powerful river that is going in the same direction and together they can flow to the sea.

Soul
Sounds hopeful but I m way pass my prime age.
For now my shrine is the loyal companion.