Cosmic Lesson

Jan 29 Eve
Father, now I knew what Seven of Spade means, keeping Faith. Z has shared with me his history. He really made up himself. He has a real tough background and marriage. But he never once complained and he just dealt with it.
I felt so humbled by him.
When I compared with him S, I had the impression he was the privileged one, while S was not. It turn out S was the privileged one.
I am so humbled by him. From now on, I remember that I am so blessed.
He really tot me of Seven of Spade.
I have so much blessing and still have difficulty in faith.
He said that he has been inactive about few years ago and now open up. My first tot was then he won't choose me as he wants someone experienced. But that was negative, putting myself down. Perhaps since he is inactive and I have never been active, we r right for each other, then we r game.
I don't know about me but the natal chart said I have it. So, perhaps he was the igniter. After tonight, I become more sure that he is a fine man and I wanted him.
He asked for the ebook and I will give it to him.
(Feb 18 - have not give and don't really plan to. As this is my expression platform.)

From there he can guess I was never active due to my fear. I told him I was holding it back as I am not sure. Besides he doesn't have time to read, he replied that he will read it. Then I said my door not open yet and he replied he would break down the door one by one.

Stay positive as we r really right for each other. When I hear his stories, I said silently to him, "You are never going thru hard time again. I am here to love u. You deserved to be loved". He is a real diamond, why didn't the wife appreciate him? Anyway, her loss, my gain.

(Feb 18 - last week, a fellow participant as the Self awareness seminar, said the same thing; I deserved to be love..and she wanted me to be married. Mmm, Z also said the same thing, he said he care for me and I deserved to be happily married.)

Let's keep this going.

He show his love by giving them food and spending quality time. That's me too. We r so alike. Like he said he is simple and I am too. I guess what is it, is that we want a simple outer life as internally we have faced so much.
And he doesn't have hobby apart from food. So like me. But now I have cultivated my writing and this year on my body. I want to experience with him. The mountain bike, I like that too. But I am game. I like the exploring during weekend.

Cosmic lesson
Seven of Spade
Challenge u to rise to higher level of thinking, speaking and acting in areas where u r likely to be holding some negative patterns that need to be changed.
If u r willing to take responsibility for ur condition and practice positively in spite of circumstances, u can realise the powerful spiritual potential of this card and attain new heights. In its highest form, this is the card of Faith.
You need to root out any habits that are negative and creating negative results in ur life.
To have success u want, u will have to make some changes in ur behaviour and in ur whole approach to these areas. U need to rise beyond ur normal fears and concerns. U need to adopt a more positive, unattached attitude.

Affirmation
I am tapping into the source of God energy and transforming all the negativity in my life into fearlessness and appreciation. I am living faith.

Soul
Father, I am ready to face my fear of having relationship, my fear of being physical. Today, he has taught me about what is faith. He has gone beyond what is normal. And if he can have faith thru all his sufferings and disadvantages, what's more me. From now onward, I will cancel all my negative tots about having rship. My love life is effortless and that's means everything I have or don't have is right.

(Feb 18 - I finally able to read Expect a Miracle; I bought this a few years ago. I read it and I can see my issue but I cannot see any hope for me. It also talked about meditation and etc, something that I wasnt keen in. Surprisingly, I can now read the book and most of it I am already practising. Great!)

CLF Lifetime Cosmic Lesson card (1st connection between Queen of Diamond and Seven of Spade)
Z plays the role of 'teacher' for u in some fashion in ur life. Their presence in ur life is a reminder of some great lesson that u must learn regarding ur role. They remind u of some of ur own shortcomings and this can be instrumental in ur finding ur path to ur highest potential. There is an unconscious desire in u to find the role that suits u best as it relates to u being a contribution to the world in a powerful and meaningful way.

Affirmation
Z shows me my highest potential and points to my highest role in this lifetime in a way that inspires me to greater heights.

Soul
I already sees it. He humbled me and I have no excuse not to pursue my destiny. I also can overcome my fear of relationship and have the effortless rship I wanted. He taught me to have Faith.

CLFS Spiritual Cosmic lesson card
Z represents a part of the lessons u r here to learn in this lifetime. Specifically they reflect the lessons u r learning involving ur responsibilities in the larger scheme of things - to a society and to the race of man.
In some way, Z reminds u of things u must do or become that will be a help to the world. If u r cosmically inclined, this relationship could lead u to ur destiny.

Soul
My issue is relationship and Z is in it.. In order to be a Transformational Leader, I firstly need to transform myself. And Seven of Spade says its all..


Queen of Diamond
Those who have a personal commitment to finding the truth within them will make this journey. They can defy the normal Queen of Diamond pattern and have a successful and long lasting marriage or relationship. The relationship are challenges, not fated curses. With conscious awareness and love, any negative pattern in any Birth Card can be transformed into a high expression of profound beauty.

Feb 18
I am committed. Everything is unfolding...