I am transforming (11)

Jan 22 Eve

Father, Z is my Cosmic Reward. Yesterday in his ernesty to seek my understanding of his one-track mind in wanting to be physical with me, he has unknowingly gave me an insight of myself.

Z said that his mode is emotion, mental and then body.
Emotion as he has liking for the gal, then he tot of how to get the gal and when he got the gal, he wants to be with her physically.

I shared that mine was mental, emotional and body. Of course, my mental is on the very high side that emotional and body is literally cut down. I was cold and frigid. I show emotion only when I am eating.

I told him that after meditation, I can now express my emotion and my body is so nimble now. My body can automatically swayed to any music playing in the background.
So, both emotion and body is in operation mode now. And with samyama, I can opt to use my mind or not.
Amazing. Thanks Z

Father, I am alive now!

And ironically I am going to meet A after a 2 year lapse. He was the one who triggered me into this inner journey. Hug to him.

(Feb 1 - met him yesterday. He came with his wife and I was comfortable with both of them. I have forgiven my Past. I am happy again)

Father, thank U. Now everything falls in place.

Just text Z.
Thank U so much. Ur sharing yesterday has unknowingly helped me to clear my own issue. I had a good cry and laugh its all released. Big Hug :)

(Feb 1 - he says he couldn't understand my text and hence didn't reply. But he text me the following day for acknowledgement of receipt.)

Soul
I am so happy. I finally found mySelf. I am alive now. I am not even thinking of Z's potential. I have learned from him. Now I am liberated from my past, from everyone. I am at peace.

(Feb 1 - With my control cast gone, I have fell into a confession. While there is no response, but it was a breakthru for me. And I know this is a preclude to the Samurai Training programme that is happening next weekend.)