Samyama Refresher (10)

Jan 27

Father, Thank U. I am now comfortable with the practice of hatha yoga, breathing awareness, shakti and shambavi in the morning. It is complete and I felt fresh eventhough only about 4 hours plus of sleep. I no longer as sleepy as previous days. I think body got the rhythm.

As for evening, my latest reshuffling of shoonya, followed by samyama. I realised that the flow is much better. And I felt more refreshed as compared to previous samyama/shoonya. Also, I noticed that the body is even more nimble than after shakti. So, there must be something more about samyama that I am not aware. While I may not have major experience, but it could be subtle but body seems to pick it up.

Suddenly tot of Z. I cannot give him the website yet but I do want to give him a copy of my ebook. I want him to know me, what I am. I don't think he know how eccentric I am. I want someone to support me in my eccentricity and knows I like to explore insights and etc. Even if he may not collaborate but he must allow me to be. I would be unhappy if he doesn't accept this eccentric part of me.

(Feb 6 - didnt tell him that. We r both not ready. Besides, its great to keep the suspense a bit.)

Queen of Spades
The card of self-mastery. We r creating more success by changing our inner tots, beliefs, and attitudes instead of trying to alter our external circumstances.\


Jan 27 Aft
Z and I
We r simple in our need for rship. We don't need drama becos we have all our drama in office and for me, my mental stimulation in writing/office and him, in his business.

So, on the surface both of us doesn't put rship in topline. But our inner wants a rship.