Facing my karma in relationship (15)

Jan 28
Father, I am good. The right elbow was bit stiff. But I know the worst is over. It was an effortless suria namaskara. I did longer breathe watching today and so practice took 3 hours. During shakti tots of Z came into pix and I got myself hooked for awhile and later I unhooked. Then came some tots of today meeting.

Yesterday received philharmonic tickets from boss. 1st tot I saw L but my mom comes first. No tots of Z at all. Then this morning after my practices, I tot of inviting Z instead. He look bit tired and I want to give him a treat. I think he may not have gone before and it will be an experience.
(Feb 18 - my projection as he later told me he felt refreshed. Actually he was angry with me for ignoring him after I asked him to come for meeting.)

At first tot of texting and then I said I don't to wait for half day to get answer. Then a tot came, u will have to face rejection. I said I don't care cos I can face it. No big deal.

Then I tot of my fear of facing public as a speaker vs writing. When I write, the response is not immediate and both good or bad response is not known. I can excuse myself by saying I didn't do promotion. But If I proceed with promotion and there is no sales, then the delayed response is rejection. But because the audience is unknown I don't take it personally and hence don't feel bad.

However, if I do public speaking, the response is immediate and there is more risk. Guess the 80/20 rules comes in again.