Facing my karma in relationship (13)

Jan 23

The only reservation I have about Z is indian food and also he wants children.
Frankly both also am not keen.
But RA is putting me a hold back on this.
So, will be open. Besides, I am attracted to him mentally, emotionally and physically. So, just be open and see where it goes.
At least he likes banana and we both like water.

Reading my Mars Natal Chart - I think 80 percent is out becos my eros were suppressed all these years. Anyway, coincidentally I just bought the right flower essence today. Everything is falling into place.

On Friday afternoon, my website become alive, in the evening Z opens up and the Saturday afternoon, I had the tarot reading and bought Eros flower essence and in the evening I was opened up by Z's sharing and become alive. And now reading my issue of MARS, really apt and for the first time I will attend to it. I want to live, I want to bring my emotion and body back again. It has stopped since I was a primary school kid, closed for more than 30 odd years.

Father, I am attracted to Z and I wants to liberate myself with him. A tot came, just 'enjoy' him and don't worry about the ending. But a second tot came in, I can no longer dismissed him after yday conversation. He is a man to be reckoned with. He is intentional and purposeful. He goes for what he wants. I wish to learn that from him. I always shy away from what I want.