Facing my karma in relationship (17)

Jan 29
C said I have faced my Saturn Card, Seven of Club. And now graduated to Cosmic lesson, Seven of Spade. So, looks like I have negativity in many things :(

Z didn't return call. Normally I would have killed it. Just now woke up and tot give him another chance. I remember I have to change myself in facing my Cosmic lesson.

My Seven of Heart is my issue. He is just my tool. My destiny is Queen of Spade and I am ready.

So, after invocation I text him for tonite meetup. After I finished my practices, I was singing immediately. Thereafter, the song came again, "Two less lonely people in the world, now that we found one another".

Mid morning
I still have negative tots running through that I ignored. No one can take my joy away. Not him not anyone. I also told myself don't blame him. Its my own issue, I attract him in my life.
Went for brunch. My mom said she wants to buy grocery for the veg lunch she is making for my friends.
I was so happy. My mom is the best. Honestly, I was still pondering whether to invite them or not. But mom made it possible and choice made. So, I invited them.

Then still no reply from him. But I remember he woke up around noon. True enough he sms me around noon. As expected he never been there. He told me he is free and his time is spent either on his business or his thesis. We agreed to meet up. Father, I like him. He is funny, not afraid that I laugh, that I am smart...

I am looking forward to the meetup. I like to experience things together. He is so refreshing and funny and he allow me to be funny too. We r good for each other. Both of us have quite intense moments with our work, so its great that our relationship is effortless. Let's just be happy together. I for one, commit not to be needing him, not to extract from him, just want to share with him my joy and laughter, experiencing things together.