I am transforming (15)

Jan 24 Aft
Father, boss got an extension for another one year plus 2 years. So hurray for me too. That's mean my 4 days work is secured for next 2 years.
I told her to leave her house and stay in new one as she now can afford to do so.
At first she was distraught and I gave her an alternative plan and she now look forward to it. Guess this is another marker of me giving positive energy to people.
Father, I have tots of Z. I miss him and start to have some imagination. Aiyoh. Never mind, may be just compulsive tots.
Then a tot came. My love life is effortless, no more drama.

Osho
1. The Issue
Life repeats itself mindlessly - unless u become mindful, it will go on repeating like a wheel.
Life is continuously changing, evolving, dying and being reborn.
Move towards the center of the cyclone and relax, knowing that this too will pass.

Soul
Tell me about it. I am glad that I was able to turn the boss's extension into a happy thing for both of us.

2. Internal influence.
The Master
The whole work of meditation is to make u aware of all that is "mind" and dis-identify yourself from it.
Now u can do and act only that which makes u joyous, fulfills u, gives u contentment, makes ur life a work of art, a beauty. But it is only possible if the master in u is awake and u become a master of ur own destiny.
The community of seekers that arises around a Master becomes an energy field that support each unique individual in finding his or her own inner light.

Soul
Not sure if I am arrogant. Suddenly tot of me being a master, I got the rest to find his or her own light.
I know Ja is on to become a teacher, boss is focusing on making herself happy, Y is focusing on finding her light. Yea. This was my Top 1 Passion

3. External influence
Ordinariness
Whenever, in whatsoever situation, u become one, a peace, a happiness, a bliss, surrounds u, arises in u. You feel fulfilled. These moments can become ur natural self.
U r facing a time now when this easy, natural and utterly ordinary approach to situations u encounter will bring far better results than any attempt on ur part to be brilliant, clever or otherwise extraordinary. Take things easily, simply, one step at a time.

4. What is needed for resolution
Thunderbolt
This card shows a tower being burned, destroyed, blown apart. A man and a woman are leaping from it not because they want to, but because they have no choice. In the background is a transparent, meditating figure representing the witnessing consciousness.
U might be feeling pretty shaky right now, as if the earth is rocking beneath ur feet. Ur sense of security is being challenged and the natural tendency is to try to hold on to whatever u can.
But this inner earthquake is both necessary and tremendously important - if u allow it, u will emerge from the wreckage stronger and more available for new experiences.
Try to watch the destruction with detachment. Say yes to the process by meeting it halfway.

Soul
My control tower has been blown apart. Me still scary especially now vulnerable to Z. Just now when I tot of him approaching me, first thing was to run or confront him, asking for certainty before I commit. Then a tot came, I am attracted to him, just go with the flow. Both of us are meditating. Whatever turn out will be fine.

5. Resolution
Receptivity
When u become a yin, a receptivity, the door to God is open - and u wait.
Receptivity represents the feminine, receptive quality of water and of the emotion. She has no head, no busy and aggressive mind to hinder her pure receptivity. She is in harmony with universe.
Sensitivity, intuition and compassion are the qualities that shine forth now, dissolving all the obstacles that keep us separate from each other and from the whole.
　
　
Soul
Wayne Dyer - infinite patience brings immediate result.