I was a noisy meditator

Jul 25
Father, I had a good day with family. Didn't do my practices. I m surprised but can now see P as she is. I know my reactions is because of my validation issue. Otherwise I won't be affected.
Even M comment no longer affect me.
Guess she is also reacting because I no longer spend time here. I can now see my validation issue got me hurt, resulting in uncertainty.

Osho - autobiography
Mind is only a mechanism - it can talk, it can be silent. The only problem is, it should not be master; it should be the servant. As a servant it is great; as a master it is dangerous. U should be the master of it.

Soul
Amen

Osho - autobiography
First active meditations, then passive meditations. U can move into passivity only when all that is there like junk has been thrown out. Anger has been thrown out, greed has been thrown out ... layer upon layer, these things are there. But once u thrown them out, u can easily slip in. There is nothing to hinder u. Fearlessly u will have to let whatsoever wants to happen, happen.

Soul
I was a noisy meditator. I got sadness of tears and cries, joy of laughter and giggles and love of songs.
Only after four years, my Shoonya now goes into deep silence.

Just had a walk and followed up with Shoonya. It was a great shut down. So peaceful. No tots,  a total rest. Feels thankful to Sadhguru for the tool.