My North Node in 11th house is Z's North Node in Aquarius - real mirror

Jul 1
Woke up from a dream of homemade seafood pasta. Feeling bit groggy and part of me want to sleep back. A tot came, if I m with Z, definitely sleep back. So, I ignored my mind, took a shower and did my practices.
My 5 cycles of Surya is improving. I can now breathe easily on back bending posture and also slow but steady breathe fluttering. I got the timing I wanted. My both feet managed to touch the ground for 2 times.
Shakti was great. Deep Kapala Bhakti. Feet was really cramped but I ignored and did 3 cycles before I took a rest. Shambavi was fine too
At first some songs singing in my mind and then deep silence. I stayed for awhile. Plough back is very good.
And this time there is a sense of appreciation in me. Having the privilege to be beyond the mind.
I told A yesterday that going beyond the mind was effortless whenever I m in meditation. Hence I didn't appreciate it and tot everyone had the same. Alas it is not so.
Throughout there are some flowing tots of Z but I didn't get hooked.
As I was driving, slightly negative tots of Z comes in. This time I speak to my mind, why u want to hurt us. Lets forgive him and ourselves. Lets move on. The tots evaporate and come back after a while. Again, I say we are fine. Lets move on.

Finally told S what I think. She really need a coach. Good for her and me too. In our rship, she is my Four of Mars in her Ruling and I am her Life and Spiritual Cosmic Lesson.  No wonder. So, time to address it after nearly 10 years.

I msg her;
I m sorry I snap at u. But I m tired of hearing the same thing again. I m not a counsellor. Since u like to talk things through and yet not so open. Best u get a corporate coach. He or she can then be ur sounding board and u can then find ur answer.

Father, something changed in me. I know tots of Z will come in. But I am now making the mind, my friends instead. Guide my mind so we won't hurt ourself again.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
They have wonderful group karma. Their best qualities emerge to support, solidify and inspire the groups of which they are a part. They are great networkers - they love connecting with others and are talented at finding a common bond among people. However, when they work in group situations, they like to be the undisputed head of their own area.
They often possess innovative ideas that can greatly assist the group, but owing to past-life needs for approval they refrain from sharing the ideas or their spontaneous reactions to others - for fear of disapproval.

Soul
True to all.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
If they keep their truth locked within, they feel isolated. However, openly sharing their ideas and personal reactions makes them feel connected and often turns out to be exactly what was needed to move the group forward in a cohesive way.
As these natives work to further the humanitarian goals that stimulate them (that they feel they were born to be part of) they will meet others who were born to work towards the same goals. Joining with these people in group situations actually facilitates the manifestation of those goals.

Soul
I found Isha or rather they found me.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
They must release their abundant creative energy toward directed goals in order to be happy and balanced. If not directed the excess fiery energy causes bad moods, resentment of others' good luck and the tendency to make mountain out of molehill. Unless these folks are "creating" dissatisfaction undermines other areas of their lives.
Their creativity can be released through a business, an art form, the furthering of humanitarian causes of acceleration of their spiritual growth.


Soul
I used to tot I don't have energy. I can see the energy in Z. Alas it is in me too.
My old college mate says that I have loads of energy.
Father, I m definitely more at ease with writing and volunteering. Meditation helps loads.
Father, I m on track.

North node in 11th house (Aquarius)
Whether they are re-creating themselves thorough spiritual disciplines or initiating projects in the tangible world, it is their best interest to be conscious of what they want to create and use their passion to actively pursue it.

Soul
Mmm, strengthening of values.
I finally emulated Z - completed my Cosmic Lesson - Seven Of Spades