Self Mastery - goes with the Flow

Jul 3
Father, woke up from a dream. So took a snooze. Did my 5 cycle of Surya kriya. Touch my feet twice. Breathe fluttering had improved further. Even the breathe on half lying down posture and mountain pose also improved.
Breathing was lovely. Just so nice sitting watching my breathe.
Shakti was not so great. My legs were cramped. But still good. There were some tots of Z flying in but I just accept them.
Shambavi was great. Towards the end a peaceful silence. So grateful to be able to experience quietness from the mind. Mind not there just a feeling of my presence.

Now at my usual Cafe. My mind said I deserve a root beer float as it is my birthday. Surprisingly a counter tot came u been on food fiesta for the past 1 week. So, by the time the waiter reach my table, I just get my usual order of honey lemon. Father, something changed in me. No longer want to use food to escape.

Just sign off and make final payment for website. Will be launched by end of this week.
Had a good sharing with my web designer. When I was sharing, he confessed that he too may be a internal control freak like me. His emotion is also suppressed.
Amen.

My Osho card for the day
Flowering
Your life should reach to others. Your blissfulness, your benediction, your ecstasy should not be contained within you like a seed. It should open like a flower and spread its fragrance to all and sundry - not only to the friends but to the strangers too. 

This is real compassion, this is real love: sharing your enlightenment, sharing your dance of the beyond.

Soul
Amen

The Power of Now
To offer no resistance to life is to be in a state of grace, ease and lightness.
This state is then no longer dependent upon things being in a certain way, good or bad.
It seems almost paradoxical, yet when your inner dependency on form is gone, the general conditions of your life, the outer forms, tend to improve greatly.
Things, people or conditions that you thought you needed for your happiness now come to you with no struggle or effort on your part, and you are free to enjoy and appreciate them - while they last.
All those things, of course, will still pass away, cycles will come and go, but with dependency gone, there is no fear of loss anymore.
Life flows with ease.

Soul
I did truly experienced this when I dropped my resistance of preparation of reports few years ago after I joined Isha.
Such irony. I am beginning to see that Self Mastery also means going with the flow.
going with the flow..is mastery by itself.
going with the flow..freed from circumstances
once we are freed...we are in peace.
and that is true Self Mastery
or rather mastery of the environment/people by accepting or not affected by the environment/people.
Father, I finally learned the key to Life.
Ironically thats my team song for North Node in 11th house - Go with the Flow

The Power of Now
The acceptance of suffering is a journey into death.
Feeling deep pain, allowing it to be, taking your attention into it, is to enter death consciously.
When you have died this death, you realise there is no death - there is nothing to fear.

Soul
Yea, accept the facticity of Z's absence, of my love for him, my sadness over him

Sadhguru
Unless there is a strong feeling of insufficiency, you will not seek anything big; you will not seek anything with great intensity.
When you walk on spiritual path, your biggest enemy is the huge sense of doubt that will periodically arise. "Am I wasting my time?" "Am I missing out on life?"
If some kind of confirmation has happened to you in some way, you just have to intensify and keep steadily on the focus.


Soul
When L said she doesn't seek, she goes with the flow.
I felt bit judged in comparison.
I told her I have loads of uncertainty and I am seeking because I want to know.
Infact later, I remembered I am seeking because I cannot allow my subsconsicous to rule my life.
I cannot allow my karma to rule me.
I want to rule my life consciously.

And I have truly found confirmation in the tools that I have received.
I have found forgiveness in A Course In Miracles.
I have found my peace and joy with Isha practices
I have release my sadness and anger with Isha practices
I have found my subsconscious with Astrology
I have found my inner perception with Osho tarots
I have found my timing with 7thunder
I am ready for 2013/2014...a new year..