Breakthru in Z...finally he said maybe no children

Jan 23 Eve

Father, I am not sure if this is real but I found myself volunteering to do housework. Simple things like cutting vege, boiling water and etc. This has never happen to me before. Even mom and sis in law noticed.

Father, Z told me that recently he is considering about getting married but don't want anymore children. He now thinks children are big responsibility. He already has children with his ex and he is fine in meeting them up. When he asked me what I think. I didn't reply and instead ask him why is he thinking about all these. He said his mom is pressuring him for marriage. I told him just relax.

Father, why don't I tell him how I feel? He finally had a change of mind. Why don't I tell him I saw us together and I don't mind having a child with him. I saw us having a daughter which he dotes on.

I recalled I decided that I won't tell him cos I don't him to marry me just because of children. I want him to marry me for me sake. Alas, he finally said it.

Good that the phone was off and we were disconnected. I open up and msg him; U r thinking of maybe no children. Here I m thinking I m ok if got one child. We r both changing ;)

Just now again he said I am 'special', others would have run away with his unreachability.

Ego said why do I go on declaring I am fine with one child. He is not proposing to me. He could turn and said he wasn't asking me.

I no longer believe it. I am beautiful and lovable. I love him and have already tell him. He has repeatedly ask me if I want children. I already had a change of mind cos I know he dotes on children and I want to give him the happiness to.

Again the ego said he is not proposing to u. Well, doesn't matter. What matter is I tell how I feel. What matter is I am now opening up to having a child. I am now not afraid to be vulnerable.