Settling down with my feelings of not being in control

Jan 22

Father, thanks for the year. I m contented. Tot of Z. It would be nice of us just to sit and snuggle together. One thing I noticed is that we are suitable for each other in terms of off mode. We r both busy with work and when we r off, we just want to relax, snuggle with each other and not be in activity mode. Even during holiday, we just like to relax, enjoy spa and each other company.

Next 3 months would not be easy. I would have my hands full. I haven't been 'working' for the past one year. Now is time to gear up.

Soul without shame
It is ur belief about ur negative feelings are what cause the bad feelings to affect ur sense of self-worth. It is the devaluation engendered by judgements that causes u to dislike urself for having those feelings, which brings about self-rejection.

U dislike and reject urself for having certain feelings. Whatever the reason, this fact feels like a given, beyond ur control. U were never tot that feelings are just feelings, that they are not statements about the kind of person u r. Remember, emotions, like tots and sensations, are forms the soul takes on; they do not define its true nature

What would happen if u didn't reject or dislike urself for experiencing the feelings aroused by a judgement.

Soul
I used to dislike and reject myself for missing Z, for being affected by him, for losing control.
These days, instead of managing it, I let it flow out with bit of tears or just connect with him. I found it will just passed on.