Settling down on my bathroom

Jan 7 Eve

Father, I like my bedroom but I still have tots on the bathroom. On the tightness of it (too small walkway), on the fact that I decided I don't want a closed shower door (water splashing out). I know I was right in not wanting the door cos then one can flow in and out from shower place. Of course some water may splash but I can put a bath mat. Main thing is that water cannot flow through.

Is the bathroom really bad to warrant my disturbance? Nope but just that the tot of 15k seems not worth it. The tiles are lovely and the table top is great except it reduces the room space. I also tot I should have lengthen the mirror. I tot I reduce the beam but looks like it still show the beam. Then I should have take the full length. Youngest sis house was well executed. Aiyah, I know what I don't want but I don't know what I want.

Again, does it matter to me? Nope, its just that I think I didn't do justice to the 15k. I should have planned better. I didn't expect the contractor not to have idea. He is an execution guy. I should have remembered that his strength was in tiles only. Again, 2nd sis recommendation is not good, just like the first one. I think the contractor works because her husband was giving him detailed plan, something I couldn't do. I guess she also not good in execution and hence didn't realise. I should have asked for first brother in law's input. On second tot, I should have asked for P's contractor.

Father, aiyah. It is inevitable. I cannot go back now.

Sadhguru
If u went to somebody and u experienced something a little beyond urself - not in terms of feeling more secure, but in terms of breaking ur limitations; if u r neither solaced nor made comfortable and if u r not comfortable with the person but still u want to be there - then that is a good place for u to stay

Soul
I am committed to the practice and yet I am still not comfortable in meeting Sadhguru. I have partially accepted him as my guru and hence I cannot give up myself yet.

Also tot of Z, so many breakthru I had with him. So much turmoil and we r still together. Now the water is still.

Mmm, and here I am worrying about what people will say about the bathroom. Aiyah, I will just say I too didn't like the execution but my contractor didn't advice me. I have to make decision all by myself.

Never mind, this is a bathroom. Next time I know my weakness and must get ID contractor.

Mmm, just read Sadhguru. Small matter. It is just my value for money and performance that was disturbing me. If anyone comment, I said I am learning. At least my wardrobe, bed and coffee table are lovely.