Controls leads need to be in position of authority

Jan 27 Eve
Father, I was updating blog. Control correlates with achievements. The higher the need to be in control, the higher level of achievement.

I have always knew I don't like execution work, I don't like to be restricted. I want freedom to do what I want. In other words, I want to be in control. In order to do that I have to be at the Top. Hence it is true control relates to achievement.

Just because a person has a low desire for control does not mean that he is unable to take more control of his decision. It simply means that he doesn't need it nor tend to seek it. In some way, he can count his blessings that he are not driven in the way that people with a high need for control can be driven.

Tot of this week Osho card -
Going with the Flow
Be the last, be non-ambitious. Water goes down, it searches for the lowest ground, it wants to be a nonentity. It does not want to declare itself unique, exception, extraordinary. It has no ego idea.

Soul
For the first time, I am willing to let go of control and I choose freedom instead. I let go of leadership in Isha. It wasn't easy. But I am getting use to it. I no longer drive myself so that I be in control.

Was updating Dec 29 blog and saw this;
Sadhguru
When everything becomes petty in ur life, u r turning spiritual. The so-called big things in ur life become petty when spirituality arise. It is only awareness which can induce this maturity.

When u have the awareness to see through the various activities, compulsions, when u see them simply as an endless rigmarole which does not really lead u to anything in particular, then the spiritual process can begin.

Soul
Leadership in Isha was one of them. I felt relief when I read this. Now I know for sure I made the right decision.

Yesterday, when I received the mail on reinstatement of a severed staff, my mind start to make noise. I waive it and said let's 'worry' tomorrow. And the answer came and it was automatically resolved. It would have been a wasted worry.