I m my own friend

Oct 27 (afternoon)

Osho for d week
1. Issue - slowing down
Meditation is a kind of medicine - its use only for the time being. Once u learned d quality, then u need not do any particular meditation.
Each moment, one has to be at ease wit oneself - not trying to improve, not cultivating anything, not practising.
There is no need to anythin but rest in ur fullness.

Soul - I hav decided that I only do meditation when I wan to on Sunday.
Also, finally a rest mth for me. Aug and Nov is the 2 best times.
Of cos, my ego was wondering what to do and I m totally fine. Tot of happily goin off at 6 pm to do hair but got party tonite.
Jus now wrote to ex-boss to keep me in mind for job offers. I admitted to him, that askin such favour may not be appropriate considering I m not his contacts.
Also chk out on Nigeria, scary - cannot go lah. I went to India, I was protected in Ashram. So, didn't proceed.
Let me jus savour - 6 mths is not a short time.
Also reminds myself of my Top 5 passion doesn include job.

2. Internal - Innocence
This will be a crucifixion of the persona, the personality, and there will be a resurrection of ur innocence. You will become a child again, reborn.
There is a sense of grace surrounding hin, as if he is at home with himself and with what life has brought.

Soul - my tot exactly. I m contented this mth. It is true I don't like my job, but I can live wit it n as long I can hav balance hours to do my thingy, I hav no complaints.

3. External - Patience
In silence n waiting, something inside u goes on growing - ur authentic being. And one one day, it jumps and becomes a flame, and ur whole personality is shattered; you are new man.
And this new man knows what ceremony is, this new man knows life's eternal juices.
The only thing to do is wait. The seed has been planted.
Contented, wit no trace of anxiety, she is simply waiting, jus let nature take the course.

Soul - yep. M lookin into relaxing. Its true, I hav grown fat, but I know I look good. So, let it be.

4. What is needed for resolution - Participation.
Make participation ur lifestyle and the whole existence becomes such a joy, such an ecstasy. You cld not have dreamed of a better universe.

Soul - firstly tot of Isha program. Secondly tot of d adv.

5. The resolution - Aloneness
Aloneness is the presence of oneself. Aloneness is very positive, overflowing presence n hence there is no need for anybody.
When there is no significant other, we can either be lonely or enjoy the freedom that solitudes brings.
When we find no support among others for our deeply felt truths, we can either feel isolated and bitter or celebrate the fact that our vision is strong enough even to survive the powerful human need for the approval of family, friends and colleagues.

Be a light unto urself.
Ultimately, each of us must devekop within ourselves the capacity to make our way through the darkness without any companions, maps or guide.

Soul - m alone without any other, and no one to share my truths as even close has dropped off and I am fine.
There is no one at the office wit me. I am also bit reluctant to adv cos I enjoy being alone also.
Will do so next mth, no rush.
Just let things unfold on its own timing.
Amen