The Passion Test

Oct 24
Woke up 7.30 am to do my meditation, these days I spend less quiet time.

Of cos, ego work me on the client's case, n then later said m stress, afraid of failure rather than don't like d job.

I told ego, there is thousand of reasons to stay, only one reason to leave. I am not happy. The meditation firstly help me to overcome my fear of failure, then detach and now once overcome. I don't wan to do this for the next 12 years of my life.

Jus did my first passion test, wil go thru tomorro.

Flip thru d papers to see what's interesting
1. Copy Editor for food magazine - at first was keen at d food, but the part on long hours n hard work was offputting. At that moment I tot food for me is pleasure, hobby but not what I wan to work at.
2. Corporate Finance - Snr Mgr, review consol and prepare BOD papers n review treasury and other ad hoc project - seem like my cup of tea. Only thing is the company, not sure m keen
3. CFO - good biz acumen, know key volume driver, good leadership and nego. Seem to be my cup of tea. Only thing is preparing for listing - so tough job, but I m fine cos m holding lead role. Then tot of Nigeria - Lagos. Mmm, wonder where is that. Sounds exciting and I got nothing to lose n after India, what is Nigeria :). Was keen to apply.
Moment later, a tot came, what abt KJ. I said aiyah, nothin is on yet n I don't wan to hold back my life for somethin unknown.
Anyway, worst case, work my ass for 3 years, get some shares, get the expat package n then retire.

I told myself jus be exploretary n let my interest n intuition flow. Forget abt how.

Evenin
The Passion Test
You can never know what will show up in ur life. You can only stay open to what is required of u in the present moment. When u let go of the way you think should be and open yourself to the way they are appearing, u open urself to the will of God, to the perfect organising power of Nature.

Everything is made by man is created first in someone's mind; then it become manifest in the world. If u want to create the life of ur dreams, it begins by writing your dreams down and becoming as clear as possible abt them.
The power of intention and attention is what brings ideas into concrete form. When u hav intention and attention with no tension, then the whole process is fun.

Some people state intentions and then r perplexed when d results in their lufe don't match their stated intention.

The truth is - Your results will always match ur true intentions.
Your life will always express what is going on deep inside u. If d results are out, then its time to do some self examination. Only when ur actions are aligned wit ur intentions that u will create ur world out of those intentions.

Soul - yea. A year ago, I wish for a job that use my strength, a boss like my friend that I can support, and it pays well and I can leave work by 7pm and do my own thing.
But I don't believe I can get it then and also I was afraid of falling into another Fire n hence resist leaving.
Now m not.


The Passion Test
Attention - Life changes when the object of ur attention becomes ur conscious choice.

Soul - nowadays m determined to be centred. To be at peace n joy.
My ego said my Ace of diamond - lookin for new things wil clash wit me getting a ptnr. Well, I don't have one at the moment, so no issue.
Abt half a year ago, I tot of overseas posting n me being alone. But I was fine cos my days were filled wit hatha yoga and kriya yoga.

The pasion test
Successful habit
1. Taking time daily to review ur top five passions
2. Choosing in favour of ur passions whenever u r faced wit a decisions
3. Taking responsibility for the life you have created
4. Taking time daily for prayer and/or meditation
5. Getting regular exercise
6. Getting adequate rest
7. Charitable giving on a regular basis
8. Eating healthy food that supports clarity
9. Speaking positively and uplifting others thru your speech.

Evening
Met close friend and at first I was excited on sharing. Then tot its her birthday so I keep quiet on that. Later when I spoke she said perhaps me being unhappy n cried its jus hormonal due to pre-menses n it wil goes away. She said she always cry n said don't wan d job when she argued wit her ex-boss.
At first tot, again, she is ignoring my feeling and dismissing it. Then I tot there may be truth cos my menses is coming.
Then I tot, she didn't wan to talk abt it, fine. She then share her dilemma, abt being good, abt guilt of not being good. And the beauty is she already agreed to let them stay for 2 weeks, so what's another 4 days. She was agonising over 4 days. Try to tell her but she said its her choice. I jus keep quiet.
Ego said she encouraged d gal friend to quit cos she doesn't hav passion n here when I cried, she said its hormonal. I guess its the unrecognised feeling that I faced as a child.

The Passion test
Facing fear
1. The head - on approach. Focus ur attention towards what got u excited, not towards what scared u.
2. The step by step approach. Take each small steps to build ur confidence n reduce the fear until u get to the point whereby u are able to push through the last bit of fear and get on the results.

You wil find that by putting ur attention on ur strength, how capable u are, and the reasons u can accomplish ur goals, fear wil drop away. Wit remarkable ease, the results u desire wil begin showin up in ur life.

Soul - we'll, for d meditation, I too step by step.

The Passion Test
When u become conscious of where u r putting ur attention, it is no more difficult than being