Approve and love them

May 6

Mmm, have tot of d Fresh Grad Human Resource. Earlier rejected her cos she looks fat. In our industry, looks matter. And also, she is fresh grad and will leave after getting experience. I will downgrade it to HR & Admin Asst.

Yday evening, after my experience wit S, I realised he is not detailed orientated and not suitable for human resource. So, if that is his weakness, then I will get someone wit good foundation. What S has is good mgm. He is good in IT and Admin and he is responsible and initiative.

So, will take this chance to revamp the human resource section. Previously P also was better in Admin rather than human resource and she doesn't have a human resource degree. So, will start afresh. Even if d gal leave after 1 year, also ok cos by then the foundation is set. Apart from leave, I also wan d gal to do bcc time sheet.

Yday, saw d email that P wrote to CEO. CEO send it to me despite me saying no need. I didn't wan cos I don't wan to jeapordise my good tot of P. Alas, I read thru and noted is quite innocent. Am glad the stand I took was to protect her. Alas, my resolution is jus to be with them, see them for their strength, helped them in their weakness and enjoy their company. Jus give them the approval they want and I have. My approval for them is still the same eventhough I now have a new addition to approve. Even where I now saw their mistakes being exposed, my approval of them didn't change.

Osho
What we see in others is only a reflection; others only serve as mirrors to us. We see in others only that which we want to see; infact we see what we are. We do nothing but project ourselves on the world.

We not only want to possess things, we also want to possess men and women. And if we have our way, we would possess even the moon and the stars. We crave to monopolise love. Because we do not know what love is, we are prone to think that if it is shared with many it will disperse and dwindle and die. But the truth is that the more love is shared, the more it grows. And when we try to restrict it, to control it - which is utterly unnatural and arbitrary - it dries up and eventually dies.

Soul
This is reflective of my staff case. They tot wit new addition, my approval for them will wane and hence they were fighting to ensure I give less to S.
My case, I restrict cos I worry that if I give, there is no return and I wan to save up for myself. Alas, now I am opening up despite earlier felt hurt abt the politicking among my staff and wanted to pull back. I am glad I didn't pull back.
I am back.

Osho
Up till now, mankind has thought of love in terms of petty relationship -relationship between two persons. We have yet to know love that is a state of mind, and not just relationship.

Soul
I am one of them. But now I know of love for oneself. I am feeling my love for myself.

Osho
If I am loving, if love is the state of my being, then it is not possible to confine my love to a single person, or even a few persons. When love enters my life and becomes my nature, then I am capable of loving any number of people. Then it is not a question of one or many; then I am loving and my love reaches everywhere.

Soul
This reminds me of Sadhguru's initiation of "can u be a mother to thousand of children?"; "can u love thousand of children?"
Of cos, in my case, first time in IE, I slept cos I tot that's so fake n I cannot identify wit it. Second time in Shoonya, I was crying cos I can't love all. Third time in volunteering IE, I find myself saying it is possible to happen. Of cos, not with me yet.

Osho
If I am loving to one and unloving to all others, even my love for the one will wither away. It is impossible to be loving to one and unloving to the rest. If someone is loving just for and hour everyday and remains unloving for the rest of the time, his lovelessness will eventually smother his small love and turn his life into a wastedland of hate and hostilituy.

Soul
Tot of CEO, so much love for son and husband and little for others. I tot is a case need to balance. But this looks like may not be. Yea woh, despite her love, her rship wit them not tip top.
How about me? I like to think m generally loving to all but I haven't been that lovin to my family. I need some balance.

Osho
We cannot think of love as anything different from a rship between 2 persons + a man and woman. We cannot conceive that love is a state of being, it is not directed to individuals. Love, like air, sunshine and rain, is available to all without any distinctions.
It is symbolic to say that Draupadi had five husbands, it meant that one could love five, fifty, five thousand people at the same time. There is no end to love's power and capacity.

Soul
I jus experience it wit my 4 staff.

Soul
Alas, 7thunder is a guide to use when we are facing conflcit, downturn, indecision, overwhelming/confusing situation. We need to experience on our own before we refer to guide. So, not sure I be a reader, but I will learn enough to use it as a good guide during stumbling block. But not use it for individual reading purpose.