In this world, we only find that which we seek

May 10

Father, surprisingly yday Sathsang, I was laughing loads during quiet moment. On the 2nd meditation, I only have sadness to release and some fears.

Osho
Man lives by ego and woman by jealousy. Really jealousy is the passive form of ego, and ego is the active form of jealousy.

Love does not proclaim its gift, proclamation is the way of the ego.

Soul
Looks like I am still far behind and that's fine. When I acted beyond the normal compassion threshold, I would tell the other person that they are lucky or blessed to have met me.

(May 23 - This is becos I think God loves them so much to have send them to me. Whereas God doesn't love me as much, I am not as lucky as them as I have to struggle on my own. Aiyah, perhaps its because I got direct connection and hence God need not send anyone to save me.)

Osho
Everyone is responsible for what he is. And everyone has to begin his journey of transformation as an individual, on his own. No one else can walk for him. And once he is started on his journey, all the forces in existence come rushing to his aid.
In this world, we only find that which we seek. Our own desires and longings and prayers come back to us, just like our own sound echoes back by the hills and valley.

Soul
Tot of my passion to be a Transformational leader. The ball is rolling.

Osho
Outwardly people may complain against his condition, but inwardly he is not only reconciled to his condition, he is at ease with it. If by chance, his condition disappear, he will begins to miss it.

Soul
Yeap, loads of people is like d boy who cries wolves. Me included. Previously, I used to lament on challenges and all is gone, I got worried cos not sure of my worth/value and start to find new job to conquer. Those period is over.

(May 23 - a tot came to me. Perhaps I dont want people to help me as I am too egoic and wants to help myself. Perhaps, while I complain that no one seems to want to help me, I myself dont want to be helped. I do have an issue with value, when I achieve without others' people help, its my own and hence my value increased....as I m not helpless
Mmmm...another perspective...just the same as me without a partner. While one part of me wants a partner, the other part worries that I lose my standing, I lose my power, i lose my value as I may have to compromise my growth...)

Osho
When love fails to achieve intimacy at the subtler levels, it craves physical intimacy. Love can be so silent and subtle that physical distances in time and space don't matter for it; it remains even in aloneness.

Soul
Interesting

Osho
Victory and defeat in life are like the warp and woof with which a piece of cloth is woven. To wave the cloth of life, the warp and woof of victory and defeat, success and failure, gain and loss, right and wrong, are essential. Life is made of these opposites, of 2 sides of a coin.
It is possible that a defeat becomes a stepping stone to victory. It is also possible victory may serve as a jumping board to fall into abysmal defeat.
The ultimate judgement one's life depends not on a count of wins and losses, but on the final summation of one's whole life story.
In fact, one who is not ready to face defeats in life should give up all thoughts of victory.

Soul
Yeap, the journey ups and downs.
Last week, I tot I was done and yet I finally showed up.
Yeap, am ready to face defeat in pursuing my Passion in this lifetime.

Osho
Krishna accepts both ups and downs of life unconditionally, he is choiceless. Choicelessness is the door to bliss, ecstasy.
Lao Tzu says Be like the winds; move with the winds, go wherever they take you. And don't choose.

Soul
The wind is taking me to accept my path in following my Passion. Just follow.


May 10 Eve
Father, jus finished watching the drama. First tot, how nice to hav a partner that can protect u. Second tot, I am not meant to hav one cos like P says I am meant for greater things and besides I lost my power then. Third tot, is ok, just accept that for now I want a partner to take care of me.