Samyama - definitely got something (6)

Apr 20

Osho card
1. The issue
Understanding
You are out of jail, out of the cage. The bar was an illusion and this small bird is summoned by the grace and freedom and encouragement of the others. It is spreading its wings, ready to take flight for the very first time.
In the first time, its natural to feel shaky but don't let it overshadow the opportunity to experience the lightheartedness and adventure on offer.
Move with the sweetness and gentleness of this time. Feel the fluttering within. Spread ur wing and be free.

Soul
Yeap, I am free. Yday, received d email from Regional with extremely detailed comments. In the past, I would have reacted cos I view it as an attack and self defense mode will be on. Infact almost all Regional has gotten my light lashing before.
Now I can jus read d email without any reaction, infact obligingly note the comments and amend accordingly. No drama whatsoever and actually d revision become effortless. It happened last week with the budget powerpoint and I tot it could be a fluke and it now continue. Amazing.
Of course, part of me wonder what happen. Where did the auto reaction go? I am no longer my usual self. Perhaps this is another clear cut example of "This is not about you".


2. Internal influence that u r unable to see
Exhaustion.
Life energy has been depleted in his efforts to keep fueling the enormous and ridiculous machine of self importance and productivity.
Life isn't a business to be managed, its a mystery to be lived. Its time to take a little trip into the unchartered.

Soul
Well, my RA was bit heavy last 2 week but this week is better. I am relaxing more and more. Have to remind myself to just go wit the Flow, whatever and wherever it maybe

3. External influence of which u r aware
Existence
Existence need you and nobody can replace u.
This gives u a tremendous joy, a fulfillment that u r related to existence, and existence care for you.
Once you are clean and clear, you can see tremendous love falling on you from all dimensions.
You sits on the lotus leaf of perfection, gazing at the beauty of the night sky. She knows that "home" is not a physical place in the outside world, but an inner quality of relaxation and acceptance.
Savour this feeling so that it can deepen and remain with u.
Soul
This mornin, watching my breathe, I just felt at ease. Jus at home.
These days can even join my staff for daily lunch, something I have not done since I first started work.

4 What is needed for resolution
Rebirth
Came. Lion and Child, the child is neither acquiescent nor rebellious, but innocent and spontaneous and true to his own being.
Whatever state you are in right now, sleep and depressed, or roaring and rebellious - be aware that it will evolve into something new if you allow it. It is a time of growth and change.

Soul
Perhaps that's why RA cos I am afraid of growth and change. This 4 days week has given me a break that I need but it also give me pressure to realise my Passion.

5. Resolution.
The Rebel
People are afraid, very much afraid of those who know themselves. They have certain power, a certain aura and a certain magnetism, a charisma that can take out a live, young people from the traditional imprisonment.

The enlightened man cannot be enslaved. The enlightened man is the greatest stranger in the world; he does not seem to belong to anybody. No organisation confines him, no community, no society, no nation.
The enlightened man is clearly the master of his own destiny.
He has formed himself by embracing all the colours of the rainbow, emerging from the dark and formless roots of his unconscious past and growing wings to fly into the sky
His way of being is rebeliious - not because he is fighting against anybody or anything, but because he has discovered his own true nature and is determined to live in accordance with it.
The eagle is his spirit animal, a messenger between earth and sky.
The Rebel challenges us to be courageous enough to take responsibility for who we are and to live our truth.

Soul
Yeap, accepting my role takes loads of courage.
My cage is open already, changes within is manifesting. While I am still shaky, I am proceeding ahead.
Its true, this path can be lonely even when u have found the Truth.
Well, I have taken this path alone since 13 years ago, swimming in the dark. So, now is walking in the light, should be easier. Amen
Now I understand why Sadhguru says he is at home at Himalaya. Who knows, maybe next year I will make a trip.

Afternoon
CD - was informed by the GM that he definitely won't prolong his stay. So tot no help there. Today meeting, I saw d opportunity to ask for him to stay longer and he agree. Definitely a possibility as d group also need time to get him other options. So, win win for us.

Noted that CEO is now seeing GM wit new eyes and saw that GM can be bias, which is good. The way she talked abt d interview candidate that her aggression oozing from her pores - that's was totally not true. Infact the ex-staff is more aggressive than this interview candidate. Really...
And d other candidate that she wanted and said is good, actually pulled out from d job offer. So, I was on the right track.

Today managed to convey to CEO that she is powerful and is intimidating and introvert won't be able to handle her. Also shared that since she is so powerful, her thoughts manifest faster than most people. So, she has to be careful of her tots.