I am connected

May 9

Father, U came thru. The last 1 week I was on a down mode, not sure of where I am, not sure of what I can offer, not sure of my connection to U. I must have been real down for You to send me Your team of Messenger.

Firstly, yday afternoon before I went to the Meetup, Sadhguru's msg was people looking for guru and my first tot was I can be but I immediately dismissed it. But when I went there, I tot, yeah I could be one. I have some good offering. These people are not shining thru and hence I think they still don't know themselves. I tot of my offering of Personal Self Discovery in the personal sense and not from universal sense. I think before we can know the Universe's Self, we must first know the Personal's self. Wit that, I start to re-energise and read 7thunder book.


Then suddenly tot of changing my blog name. I have use a word of what I don't want, that is suffering together with what I want, which is blessing.

The Cloud explains that this is the misconception and hence further propel me to think that perhaps my blog name is not right now. Besides if I wan to be a published author, I must come out.

Father, 12 May is the end of my 52 days of Six of Diamond period. And when I received the Osho card that says my Mind is finally mastered and Consciousness shines thru, I tot that is too much. How can it be, when I am feeling down and hardly connect during meditation, and only little joyfulness shines thru. The card even says that once I have Consciousness, all the politics in my mind will be dissolved.
Yeap, I am ready to come out. Joy Ong.

Just now when I was walking in the park, tot of my chronic disease that is there to facilitate my role of approving and loving myself and to guide others to do so as well.

Father, as usual, you are the real Strategist. You must really love me for You to give me the impetus to approve myself. You must also think that I can have the connection wit You to guide others to approve themselves too.

Afternoon
J is 8 of diamond. I have so many 8 of diamonds with me.
1. My close friend - fellow journey
2. My staff
3. My fellow meditator
4. My close friend.
5. My colleague.