Chronic disease

Apr 17

Got this channeling from my close friend. Very timely especially since my RA has acted up recently and I am feeling bit down and losing hope of ever being cured. Bit sad that the suffering still continues. Haven't I learnt what i need to learn?

Channelling from Jeshua
The purpose of illness is to obtain a better and deeper understanding of yourself. Once you do this and go along with the inner healing process, physical recovery is often the result.

However it does not always work this way. Some diseases do not disappear even when it seems you have gone down to the root of the underlying emotional blockage. This is the case with chronic diseases.

In the case of chronic disease there are persistent physical problems that keep recurring. Especially during vulnerable periods in which you more or less lose touch with your inner self, the symptoms recur sometimes even in an increasing degree. This can be quite demoralising. Therefore it is important to consider the disease from a broader perspective.

Soul
That's how I was feeling this 2 weeks. Though the Osho card says that pain is not to make me suffer but to make me aware. Only thing I can think of is that I did move away from my passion to be a Transformational leader and infact was thinking to go back and do 5 days work. Alas, the pain reminds me and I did 4 days work instead.

Jeshua
People with a chronic disease undertake quite an ardous task. On the soul level, they have agreed to confront the fears that come up in the context of their illness and to confront idealised pictures of how someone should perform in life. To take up this challenges show great courage.

It often happens that a soul chooses a chronic disease to work out a specific issue in a highly focused way. The disease throws you back on particular emotions each time. There is an emotional pattern that accompanies the illness to deal with these emotions time and time again is quite a heavy task but it bears many fruits for the soul.

Quite often these lives have a great profundity and an inner richness that is not always noticeable to other. Therefore it is not supportive to constantly strive or hope for an improvement of the medical condition.

The fact is that the disease often proceeds in a spiral movement, helping you grow on the inner level in circular movement upwards, although apparently you relapse into the same physical symtoms each time.

On the spiritual level, you do not fall back but you reach ever greater depths in dealing with emotions that possibly have been overlooked by you in the past, even in past lives.

Soul
This message reinforce the msg from Ekhart Tolle about inner fulfillment and not outer fulfillment.
For me, I think whenever I ignore my Passion, the symptoms increase. Whenever I force myself to do things I don't like, the stress also increase.
Father, I do have an issue with people telling me that I am a discipline person. Why? It is a compliment but I brush it off and infact doesn't wan to think I discipline myself to do wake up and do meditation.

Rheumatoid Arthritis
Deep criticism of authority. Feeling very put upon.

Affirmation
I am my own authority. I love and approve of myself. Life is good.

Soul
I already taken in the affirmation. So, why?

(Soul - 7 May - Now reading this; my mantra was : I am my own authority. I approve and love myself. So, perhaps lately I haven't approve myself and hence RA acted up. And the fact that it is chronic means that not only do I have to approve and love myself, I also have to show others how to approve and love themselves. Is this the lesson??)