Approved and love themselves

May 5

Father, read the Cloud of Unknowing, brought tears into my eyes. Previously, I just cry and cry and don't really know what is about. Now with meditation, I know. Coincidentally, the first poem talks about 4 level of being a human;
1. Common
2. Special
3. Singular
4. Perfect.

I think when I read it, my path was under the Special level and now m progressing to the Singular level.

The issue on politic among my staff. They jus seeking my approval and when they tot my approval may be waned by others having more of my attention, they start to attack the person they perceive having more. The crux is that if they approve and love themselves, they don't need my approval and hence would not need to attack anyone. Or the contrary can happen, they won't have to suppress themselves so that people like them.

Father, thanks. I m learning from this episode. So, the strategy is just to give them approval so they don't need to seek approval or to reduce others approval level.
Its like my insight of, if u can climb up, u do that but if u cannot, u push people down. In the end the strategy is just to make sure u have enough.

I myself mostly use climb up, unless my weakness is being triggered and then I unconsciously push others down.
I will be conscious. To do that give the approval I need myself.
I noticed that I tend to judge myself critically and found me lacking if I think m not actng from my higher self. Yday, was judging myself and then a tot came; aiyah GM attack others so much and she can live with it and here I unintentionally attack cos I want to help another colleague, I can accept myself. Its ok, I approve and love myself. After saying this a couple of times, my mind judgement of myself stopped.

Osho
To be humble is to be on the first leg of the journey to purity. The humble has yet to be pure, he is on his way to it. One cannot be pure without being humble, because there is no greater impurity than ego. One who is full of ego can never be pure.
So humility is not enough, it only sets u on the road to purity that is innocence.

Soul
I approve myself. I am not going to be arrogant to think I have arrived and hence I don't have to judge myself when I don't act pure. I am just humble and jus embarking on the road. The main thing is that I jus want to be aware.

Osho
Blessed are the poor in spirit. One is so poor, so empty within that there is no space left for any impurity to exist.
Be humble and pure, poor and empty and the Kingdom of God is yours. If you lose everything, you will gain everything. If u save anything, u will lose everything.

Soul
A tot came on my blog of sufferingisblessing. U only surrender and be humble if u r in suffering mode or overwhelmed by greatness of nature. But chances of personal suffering is much higher. It is only when u suffer, u want to find a solution and mostly it entail change of behaviour, ie drop of ego.

Osho
A person who imposes humility on himself, who cultivates and practices humility, will always seem to be humble.
But the humility that comes naturally, that is not imposed nor cultivated, can be bold enough to be impolity if need be. Only a humble person can have the courage to be utterly impolite. Only a man of love can afford to be hard-hitting if need be.
There is no effort to become anything - humble or arrogant.

Soul
I tot of if u love urself truly, u don't have to seek love from others. So u r freed to act as u wish to be even if it displeases others.