Samyama means balance, equilibrium, to be just in the middle

May 12
Today, feel ok, not sleepy. Father, yday I asked Sadhguru for message on how to repair the rship between among my staff.
A tot came, to use P to get the ball rolling.
I think S keep on thinking W is influenced by P. S is afraid of antagonise W further.

Father, what's happening to me? Why am I not as confident before? I used to take pride in getting people together, confronting issue and etc.
Nowadays, I just don't want to. Think these issues is like going back to the past.

Yday Sadhguru says I have to continue my work continuosly. Not caring about the results. Just do it. And my Weekly Osho talked abt sharing.
Mmm. A tot came, jus like P complained of A previously, but A left. So, perhaps this case between S and W is the same.
Also, I am not sure of my own issue. Personally, I like variety and changes and hence I am more pro S rather than W. That's partly why I don't act cos I don't wan to be unfair to W. Its like the more I know, the less sure I am.

Osho
It is quite possible that one chooses a particular dimension of life to the exclusion of the rest, and attains to its wholeness. The river that flows in a single stream is as much entitled to reach the ocean as one flowing in many stream. With respect to reaching the ocean, there is no difference.

One who attains to wholeness through a single facet of his life not only negates all other facets of his own life, he also becomes instrumental in negating those aspects in the lives of many other multidimensional people.
On the other hand, one who attains to wholeness, to the absolute, through all aspects of his life, proves helpful even to all kinds of one-dimensional seekers in their journey.

Soul
Tot of me and S, we r mutlidimensional and W is one dimensional. Actually, lots of specialise Finance person is one dimensional becos its the attribute. With Finance, change is not encouraged cos it affect too many items and cause more work to reconcile.
Whereas Admin and HR is multi because of lots of possible scenarios and dealing wit people.
Let me see both their strength for their respecitve dept.

Osho
Samyama means balance, equilibrium, to be just in the middle. When the scales are equalised so that neither side outweighs the other.
It is a striking balance between indulgence and renunciation.
Such a person is neither an ascetic nor a hedonist - or he is both.

Soul (23 May )
Father, suddenly tot, perhaps thats is why I am no longer as confident before. It is difficult to be decisive when you can see the 2 scales at different ends. Also, when you can see, the responsibility seem to increased further that we have to seek clarity before we decide and act.

Osho
There are 2 kinds of discontent in love. You are discontented if u don't find your lover and you are discontented even if you find one.
When u find someone you love and who loves you, you realise that in spite of the meeting, a distance remains and nothing can be done to mitigate the pain of this separateness.
In spite of everything you do to do away with this separateness, this distance from your lover, it continues to torment you.
So, very often a person who does not find his love is not as miserable as one who finds it. One who does not find can still hope to find, but one who has found is robbed of all hope - his discontent and despair are much deeper.
Unless two lovers become divine, they cannot achieve a real unity.
A man and woman can at best be related to each other; they cannot be united and one. Only divine elements can meet and merge into each other. There is really nothing to unite or divide; nothing is separate from them.

Today card
Seven of Club
Low side is negative thinking
High side is mental and spiritual revelation, expanded consciousness.
How it manifest for u will depend on ur ability to elevate ur thinking.

52 days card
Six of Heart
Balance and peace in personal relationship.
It reveals to u a special purpose in ur life, one of helping others by sharing love with them. You may become aware of a special mission that u r to perform when this card appears. It is the card of peace and intuitively knowing how to love others in a spiritual sense.

Evenin
Today, W approached me to give feedback on S. I gave her my input and halfway thru she suddenly cry. I asked her why and she couldn't reply me. I asked her does she think m scolding her, she says nope. She doesn't know why she cry. I then able to express that she is crying cos she is feeling overwhelmed with resentment. She shared that not only she didn't like the way S worked but also S seem to gave me the impression that W is not doing her part. I told her I know her well and if I don't think she is doing well, she would have received my immediate feedback.
I told her that in d beginning, I couldn't see S's weakness but I now know he is not detailed orientated. I also told him that while S is sad abt their deteriorating working rship, he is not aware of his weakness. So, she has to learn to give feedback.

Then S came to me and I told him to wipe things clean. I apologised that in d beginning I interpreted W as more defensive but then last week I also realised S contributing factor. So, I want him to realise that.

Father, I think I fulfill my higher purpose today.
Also, six of heart, very appropriate following six of diamond.

Today spoke to P and suddenly she says CEO is difficult to be loved. I told her that's because she gave all to her family and not receiving and hence she is forcing us to give her love from the office. I told her that she lacked love inside.
I was saying my RA affirmation is to approve and love myself and to teach others too.
Then P says in CEO's case, the love is zero, so I have a good working case. If I can guide her to approve and love myself, RA would be cured...ha ha.