All of life is relationships

Sept 11

Answer came.

I was feeling bit ungiving and resentful cos my Ruling is Ace of Diamond. Alone and if do something must have 'return'.
That's what I meant sharing. I give and I receive.
I want that becos basically I am happy alone.

So, its not that I am 'bad' and unable to love. I am loving.

Tot came - one day, meditation will ignite a flame and burn my personality and I become a new person.

I aspire to be like Tamil teacher's presence - universal love.


Father, my 2nd karma Card and Result Card in my Life Spread is Nine of Diamond - Universal Giver. This means the chance of success is great as I already have inherent positive card due to past live giving.

Father, Giving means I already have already received.
So, giving is receiving.
Let me absorb this further.

Heal Ur life
Reinforce new learning by-
1. Expressing gratitude - yes
2. Writing affirmations - no
3. Sitting in meditation - yes
4. Enjoying exercise - yes
5. Practising good nutrition - no
6. Singing affirmation - no
7. Taking time for relaxation - yes
8. Using visualisation, mental imagery - no
9. Reading and studying - yes

Heal Ur life
All of life is relationships. We have relationships with everything. The relationships you have with objects and foods and weather and transportation and with people all reflect the rship u have with urself.
The rship u have with urself is highly influenced by the rship u had with the adults around u as a child. The way the adults reacted toward us then, is often the way we react toward ourselves, now both positively and negatively
Perhaps they never praised u, so u have no idea how to.


(Oct 15 - Sadhguru says we cannot avoid relationships. We can only decide if we want to make it joyful or miserable. And miserable is the result if we are aiming to extract joy from the other person. If we aim only to give joy to the other person, then our relationship is joyful)

Soul
My authority always criticise me for not being good enough. Always telling me to strategise especially areas where I am weak in cos I don't have enough.

Words they used
Not beautiful (Now: I may not be beautiful but I know I am above average)
Stupid (Now: I know I am smart and can even be called an intellectual)
Cannot make it. (Now: I am head of department)

Since I don't affirm myself, I don't affirm others either. All my previous 3 boss (W, A, M and J) all sought my affirmation.

Nine of Diamond
Means that things and people they value will be taken away or at least need to be released.
Nine (ending) is the Opposite of Ace (beginning)
Nine (giving to others) is the Opposite of Ace (giving to self)
Nine must follow a higher path in order to be completely fulfilled. The higher path is often the exact opposite of what is believed and taught in our society.
Nine represents the letting go of our personal desires and identity and merging ourselves into the universal consciousness. In this regard, the Nine person often identifies themselves with a great purpose - that of saving the world in some way.
When they truly released, its Nines that are accessing the power of letting go that is inherent in the birth card (or 2nd karma card) are happy and somewhat carefree. They are giving and less attached to people and things in their life. Result is happiness and enlightenment having made transition.
They understand life as no others can because they can see well beyond their personal identity to the broad picture of the universe.
The compassion they exude is real and comes from consciously passed through many endings.
Their happiness is real because it is not based on the acquisition of any thing or person. It is based on the knowledge they are in tune with the will of God and the cosmic flow.

Nine of Diamond (Universal values - the Giver)
Entails a lot of giving to others and a willingness to release both people and materials things from their life.
Great at promoting things they believe in. Great talker and communicator.
Challenges - to develop and use their charm and power to do good work. Many of them are destined to make great contributions to the world, often by leading others to a higher form of knowledge