Tamil IE (4) - intense practices

Sept 7

Father, I finally know what being intense in practice means. I finally know what To Be With IT means.
All these while, I just fell into the zone without much effort. I just do the process, without any focus (no intensity) and since I got to be joyful. I didn't tot of doing anything until I become disatisfied and tot there shld be more.
So far, all the people I have met doesn't have the type of grace that I wanted too. Even, Sadhguru, when I met him in person, honestly I was bit disappointed. I am more affected by His Energy rather than his person. Perhaps, its becos I couldn't contain his presence and I just laugh and laugh. If I kept it in and contain it, I would have experience the bliss of his presence.

For the first time, I met such a lovely presence in the Tamil teacher. And I wanted to have what he has. He guided me to my first blissful meditation. He also led me to my first intense practice and the meaning of Be with IT. Amen.

The timing is amazing. I never plan nor expected this. I tot this was the 'peak' with Isha and I am doing it for maintenance purpose due to my health. And now I have propel forward. Like he said I can be a Seeker, which I am. I have never consciously did my practice. I just did it by the way, confident that the Universe wil connect and I be joyful.
Never have I consciously make an effort. I just let it happen. I never make it happen. Or rather for the first time, with the focus, I am able to contain the energy and experience the bliss.

Text P to attend the IE Tamil class. He just go back from Kailash, so timing is good too. For me, he represent my inroad to samyama.

Tot of what I have received from U. Father, I am so humbled by Your Grace. Thanks so much for everything from the bottom of my heart. My tears of gratitude for U.
Everytime, I am confused or stranded, U always send to me someone or something to propel me further.
Sadhguru, from today onward. I will do my practice with Intensity. Let's be pragmatic. I am already doing the hours, so I should do it with focus so I reap the benefits. Thank U for sending the Tamil teacher.

This morning, did my asanas with focus. I just focus on the point at my forehead and do all the closing of feet. Have break in between and when spurt of laughter came, I contained it and it makes the asanas more intense.
On the 90/45, I spend longer time. On the plough back, I stop at every posture, savouring it, just like I did for suria namaskara.
On the head touching ankle. I did bend down and stay there for more than 1 min.
On the relaxing, take 3 sets of deep breathe followed with open mouth release.
Did my 61 points consciously and the relaxation, I was totally relaxed. Later did 10 motion of open mouth/chest breathing.
After the asanas, I was just so nimble.

Did my breathing meditation and this time noted I didn't move with my breathe, just being aware of my body and I went in deeper than before. Head was shaking on its own accord.
My shambavi. I was focused on my forehead all the time. I only let go abt 10 percent of time. Did my surka kriya with focus, left hand was still and just focus on breathing and my back was straightened unconsciously.
Everything flow thru.
When I reach the end, I contained the spurt of laughter and just take in the energy, keep on focusing on my third eyes, taking all inward.
There was an orgasmic experience rising from my pelvic and it was a real pleasure. I would gauge it at 30 percent of yday blissful experience.
But it is more than I have ever experienced with Shambavi or even Shakti.
I finised my practice at 7 am. I have never felt this refreshed before after morning practice. This is the first time in the 1 year since I started my 4.30 am practices.

4 of Hearts
Is a sign of protection in love, marriage and family
It represent at its most basic level, the foundation of love upon which all of our other relationships are built. It is the home of heart.

Soul
That's exactly how I feel. Alas, my heart is open up and filled with love.