Meditation manage ur mind (2)

Sept 14
Father, today was fine. My hatha is ok and this time I hold back more. The breathing was good. I find myself sensing the breathe as it move in and out of my body. Shambavi good too. Alas, no sweetness and bliss, but a calmness that has more depth than what I previously experienced.

Father, I am really amazed at CEO. She is really going inward and look and acknowledged her fear. This confirm my belief that high ego is also a good thing becos u need courage to go in and look at urself.
She gave me the motivation. This mornin I tot of making 7thunder cards as my base, Osho for specific issue. Personality card for ruling card.

Osho
1. The Issue - New Vision
When u open up to the ultimate, it pours into u. You are no longer an ordinary human being - u have transcended. You have found your roots.
Your inner being, when it opens up, first experience two directions: the height, the depth. And then slowly as this becomes ur established situation, it spread into eight directions.
Now u r presented an opportunity to see life in all its dimensions, from the depth to the heights.
We come to know from experience that the dark and the difficult are needed as much as the light an easy. By allowing all life colours to penetrate us, we become more integrated.

Soul
Great to hear that. The blissfulness was the height and now I have gone in deeper. My energy circumference has expanded.

Yeap, suffering is blessing.

2. Internal Influence - The Burden
A man's true life is the way in which he puts off the life imposed by others on him. The lie cannot become the truth, the personality cannot be ur soul.
See the lie, look deep into the lie of ur personailty. Becos to see the lie, is to cease to be and what is left is the truth.
So shrug of ur shoulders and see what it feels like to walk without these characters on ur back. You have ur own mountain to conquer, ur own dreams to fulfill, but u will never have the energy to pursue them until u release urself from all the expectations u have gathered from others but now think are ur own. Its time lighten up and send them on their way.

Soul
Tot of my Ace of Diamond ruling card and my Five of Heart mercury card. They are such opposite to Queen of Diamond in some aspects.

Father, I want to stay focus on the tools I have found and known to be good for my path as Transformational Leader.

I want to be focused in my Path. Mmm, a year ago I see this card differently as me carrying my expectation of myself. And now is me carrying my Ruling and Mercury cards. Guess I am going deeper and deeper.

3. External Influence - Consciousness.
There is crystal clarity available righ now, detached and rooted in the deep stillness that lies at the core of ur being. There is no desire to understand from the perspective of the mind - the understanding u have now is existential, whole, in harmony with the pulse of life itself.
Accept this gift, and share it.

4. What is needed for resolution?
Politics
All but the more innocent and and sincere of us have the politician lurking somewhere in our minds. The minds is political. It nature is to plan and scheme and try to manipulate situations and people so that it get what it wants.

Soul
Now I understand. This is in respect of my Five of Heart and Ace of Diamond. They are both of the mind's attributes. I need to ignore my mind so I can let go of them.

5. Resolution
Celebration
Life is a moment to celebrate, to enjoy. Make it fun, a celebration, and then u will enter the temple.
Don't be too wise, too clever. Your cleverness is your disease.
Always remember to stop. A little foolishness and a little wisdom is good, and the right combination makes u a buddha!

You are becoming more available and open to the many opportunities that are to celebrate in life and to spread this by contagion to others.

Soul
Yea!
Tot of great food this Sat. Great that its only 30 days, 25 Sept instead of 16 Sept. Father, funny I have accepted and here U gave me many gifts. Amen.


Sadhguru
The whole reason why u make a pilgrimage to Kailash is to understand and experience that there is something beyond what you logically know in this world as 'real'. Either u remain within the limitations of ur logic or u taste the magic. The logical will handle the mundane, which u must take care of. But at the same time, a point should come where u r willing to leave logic aside and taste the magic of life. Otherwise, life will remain mundane and nothing beyond it will ever touch u.

Soul
Same msg as Osho
Father, I have already experienced many time over, beyond logic.
For me, till now no interest on Kailash. For me, its not the spirituality that is the issue. Its the physical. In the end, I will reach the body. It is also the money.