Sept 8 Evening

Father, just finished my evening practices.
On the way back, I was conscious of my breathing and felt such grounding of silence. I need to check with Tamil, is there a difference between awareness of breathe and watching ur breathe.
Straight off start with shoonya without any invocation. Went in deep. This time tot came, I just left it fly by.
Then did guru pooja and followed by Shakti.
The Shakti was effortless.
Surka kriya did without any movement from the left hand. The stomach breathing was effortless and throughout I just focus on my third eye and my stomach just contract in and out naturally.
The Shakti was deep throughout.
Finally, the ending and this time I sit up straight and cross my leg sadhana style. At first, some slight numbness to the feet, but few minutes later I was fine. I continue to focus on my third eye.

Laughter trying to come out, but I contained and later the contained laughter become my slow stomach contractions in and out. Throughout I focus on third eye and I felt the orgasmic experience, better than this morning. So sweet a feeling. Amen.

Sadhguru, thank U for sending Tamil teacher. U have helped to propel me further. Now all my meditations, shoonya, breathing, shambavi and shakti has changed. You have revived my commitment. Amen.

Sadhguru
You are not bound, but u believe that u r bound. All u have to do is awaken urself.
Realisation is moving into a higher level of energy and a higher level of awareness.
Suddenly, u r awake in a different reality together, which we are referring to as the Ultimate Reality.

Soul
If anyone were to tell me that my meditation practice can go up another notch. I would disbelieve them. I tot I couldn't, that's it. And now I know that's not it. I have tasted the bliss one time and now I am tasting the sweetness of my being.
Father, thank U. Amen
I am attracted to the teacher's lovely presence and laughter. I wanted to have that too. We just met and somehow we connect. I like him. Just now watching d other guy n I didn't like the energy I saw there.
Father, I want to have the lovely presence. My outward presence is joyful and now inward is sweet. The sweetness will flow to bliss.
Father, I recalled that I said I want to focus in Feb samyama. Alas, I didn't know how to focus and my body also couldn't contain the energy. So, I only have laughter, dancing and singing in the 8 days. Now that I can focus and body is also ok, I will re-affirm my commitment. I want to have the lovely presence.

Ace of Diamond
Venus - Ace of heart
A card of soul-searching and often introspection. Its the search for self identity or for those things that help us to love who we are unconditionally. In order to love ourselves, we often find someone to love who reflects back to us what we are seeking within.
Bring a friendship from someone dear to u. Can represent a new relationship beginning.