Queen of Diamond Life Spread

Sept 9
Soul
Just did my shoonya. It was deep. Father, thanks for guiding me to the next level.

Neptune in Life Spread
Queen of Spade - Self-Mastery
They are true mothers of the world who compassionately share and teach their wisdom. They are all born to rule, but they must actualise that destiny themselves.
They rise to their highest potential by following their intuition and inner guidance.

Soul
No wonder I reacted when I heard Sadhguru, can u be a mother to thousand of people.
I want to teach to lots of people and hence got money. But I also want to be alone. That's why its my dream and my fear.

Jupiter
Nine of Hearts - Universal Love Card
They are givers, endowed with great minds and hearts to share with the world
Many are found in counseling fields out of natural desire to give to others.

Soul
Looks like I am on the right track. This avenue is the one that can also give me blessing/money.

Saturn
Seven of Club
Challenge lies in the negative aspects of the mind which are worry, doubt and pessimism.
They have much inherent inspiration and insight, but when they don't follow it, they will be despair and depressed.
They have the power to overcome their problems and to attain the fame and recognition they secretly desire, but they must apply themselves diligently.

(Oct 8 - Father, previously I couldn't relate to this. Now I can. I have loads of self-criticism. Even before things materialised, my fear will bring me back to earth. I am too pragmatic. I want to dream a bit more, be adventerous. I want my vision partner..perhaps thats why my RA was acting up cos I decided a few months ago to stop wanting. But fear of RA is more than fear of rejection, so will try and now that i know my challenge is being a pessimist, I will be focused on my vision partner.)

Soul
This reminds me of my Inner Child card I received last weekend during Soul Sisters program

Inner Child
You've got the Power!
Use your abilities to resolve this situation.
You can do it!

The fairy child is walking on a string of cow web
Just playing, knowing she has the power.

Soul
Yeap, I want to attain fame and recognition by way of Self Mastery.
A very tall order.

Neptune for the year
Six of Diamond
They are here to help others come to a greater understanding of values. If they accept what they receive through their natural intuition, they will always be happy, regardless of the circumstances of their life.
If they have discovered their special mission in life, they will not worry about how much money the have.
These people make great teachers. They are givers and can be entrusted with great responsibilities. What they have to give is a clear knowledge of higher values and the discrimination to make better personal choices. They are keeper of the law.

Soul
Exactly my dream for this year.