Expressing my fear (3)

Sept 16 evening

Father, its true.
I send d sms but rejected. I send email no reply. Father, why I send becos I was doing it for me. Alas no reply I felt rejected.
But I am able to see this rejection and tot why do I see it as rejection. He got hundreds of email and if I were him I only respond to those wit queries or issues. So, its not me. Nothing with me. I just wan to practice expressing my feeling and not worry about reciprocity

Amen

Just now email came and I hope it was from him. Father, really have abandoning issue. But the good thing is I am smiling and seeing it. Amen.


(Oct 15 - Finally 1 week later, i received the rejected email. Looks like it didn't get through. As for him not responding to my goodbye, it was because he was concerned about the guy who is teaching IE without authority and now has negative physical outcome.)