Tamil IE (3) - my first blissful experience

Sept 6 Eve

Evening

Amazing. I didn't plan to attend the tamil IE and only to do the Sunday initiation as my friend LK is not around, just want to volunteer.

This morning Shambavi was fantastic and I really liked the teacher and also I know the center's energy is good and of cos I wanted to ask teacher about his experience. I told him I am not keen in volunteer nor being a teacher. He said I can be a Seeker (which is exactly what I am). I shared about my experience, he said I am on the right track. I told him that there must be more than jus laughing, dancing and singing. I wanted to ask about his experience as he has a lovely presence. He told me that there is more than joy and what I experience is just a phase but I must let the laughter phase go.
I told him I am willing but not sure how.
He says that to cross over, it doesn't require time nor years of practices. It just require intensity. When I laugh, sing and dance, means my body cannot contain the energy. So this requires more sadhanas.
He asked me to do the shambavi together with the rests of the IE participants and volunteers, just be here, also asked myself to contain the laughter a bit and see what's else there

Firstly, I sit quietly to the music. I didn't follow my body to sway, I contain the movement and suddenly I found myself sitting erect and at ease for a very long time. Very surprising
I did shambavi, I just focused being there. I did intensely and the most amazing was surka kriya. My left hand didn't even lift up, and towards the middle, I found my back becomes erect without effort and the surka kriya was the deepest breathing I have ever done.
Then aum chanting, he was there to support. Then I did the fluttering and this time I try to contain the head swinging and focus on the breathe instead. I found it slightly difficult but he helped me by doing the fluttering and the energy got to me.
Then I did the bandana. I know the secret is locking the bottom and not the top, so I can still breathe. With that I managed to lock much longer on full and empty breathe.
Then the quiet moment, at first nothing, then a laughter try to escape and I close my mouth and a few more times, I just contain in and focus inward. And suddenly I found myself in a state of such pleasure, so orgasmic. And it went on and on, and it become so sweet, so full that I was gasping, exclaiming and also tears of gratitude came. I was there for a long long time until Teacher asked us to come out. I was still caught in the blissful experience.
Father, I finally encountered bliss.
When I came out, I felt my heart has open up and my hand goes to keep it warm. I felt love flooded within me.
I shared this with another fellow meditator, M and she says she also experience something more, she found herself laughing. She wanted to talk more to me.
Father, yea. Our local teacher normally ignore such sharing. So, its not just me.