Samyama Refresher

Sept 8

Father, did suria that was effortless and nowadays even the slopping down is via the chest and not the chin. My elbow is getting stronger. Tots came in and not as easy to focus on the Energy as we also need to keep track of the no. of cycles. Towards the eight cycle, I can feel the energy expanded. I follow it through and during the relax period, I felt in deep meditation. Full relaxation.

Then start on my breathing meditation. Tot of Tamil teacher and this time instead of watching. I become aware of the breathe instead and focusing on it. The experience was sweet. And these 2 days surprisingly, my back no 'cracking' sound. I can sit straight so comfortably. M surprised at my body.

Then did shambavi, did focus but tots do come in but only 50 percent of norm. I also did the 2 min of the first three session instead of my norm 1.5 min. Suria namaskara, back was errect and left hand was still, focus on the breathe.
In th end, don't have the bliss or orgasmic experience (aiyah, not due to me. It was Tamil teacher and Sadhguru ), just a feeling of sweetness. But I like it.
Yeah, my experience is sweet now. Thanks to Tamil teacher

Father, my mind is made up. I am going for the Samyama Refresher. This decision is confirmed by the Osho cards too. And the issue mentioned under No Samyama is the same in my this week

Osho.
Conscience vs Consciousness.
The Patient Card, I wonder, actually is Tamil teacher leading me to higher level.

Eight of Club
The card of mental power, the ability to focus one's mind on a goal or objective and see it through to a successful conclusion.

Soul
Really true. I choose natural detachment over food.
Whatever the outcome, at least I overcomed my attachment to food.