My past - self criticism of not being good enough

Sept 6 Afternoon

Father, as I was talking to my gals on d Soul Sisters program, suddenly I realised that I felt not good enough with all the New Age professionals there.
There are Tarot readers, Psychics, people who have been into new age a few years ago. They know more than me. Who am I to share.

1. Issue - Exhaustion
A man who lives through conscience becomes hard. A man who lives through consciousness remains soft.
A hard person is mechanical and reacts in a predictable way.
A real man acts spontaneously.
It is energy draining to live as a hard man.
Life isn't a business to be managed, its a mystery to be loved.

Soul
I have let go of my past. Also with that my predictable response on staff's claim. It is true, it does takes energy to maintain my principles.

2. Internal Influence.
Ripeness
You are now ready to share ur inner riches, ur 'juice'. All u need to do is relax right where u are and be waiting for it to happen.

3. External issue
The Outsider
My key issue; Inner self-criticism
"Somehow "not good enough" to be accepted and included.

Recognise the roots of these feelings in the past and let go of the old pain.
It will bring u the clarity to see how u can open the gate and enter that which u most long to become.


(Oct 8 - yeap, I no longer allow criticism of me not being good enough to hijack my dream. It is ok to dream of my vision partner.)

4. What is needed for resolution
Change
Life repeats itself mindlessly - unless u become mindful, it will go on repeating like a wheel. Once u see the pattern, u can get out of it.

Soul
This is reminding me to remove my ego inward self-criticism. Forever comparing me to others and its mostly some people with strength that is my weakness.
My ego has put me on a pedestal. I now know everyone is different and has their strength and weakness. Even if my strength is not as great as other people strength, but that's also show perhaps my weakness is not as great either.

5. Resolution
Patience
Now is a time when all that is required is to be simply alert, patient, waiting.
In silence and waiting, something inside u goes on growing - ur authentic being. And one day it jumps and becomes a flame and ur whole personality is shattered and u become a new man, a man who knows life's eternal juices.


Heal Ur life
We are meant to be different. Nature never repeats itself. When we can accept this, then there is no competition and no comparison. To try to be like another is to shrivel our soul. We have come to this planet to express who we are.
Often what we think of as the things "wrong" with us are only our expressions of our own individuality.

Soul
You gave me whatever I need. Now I just want to wait.


(Oct 8 - exactly. whenever my ego says that i m not good enough. I will reply that he has been through the world and he knows i m unique. I need not compete with others)