Breathing meditation with awareness

Mar 3
Woke up before alarm at 3.36 am. Snooze bit and finally woke up at 3.43 am.

Body was okay but mind chatting. Sat on the toilet bowl for sometimes. Had tots of Z's predicament with his ex-wife custody of children. Waive it off cos it's not my problem. Then tot of how to tell mom that I need to rent out a room.

Did Bhuta Shuddi followed by a long cat stretch.
Angarmadhana was okay. Flexibility was bit lacking. Hero posture was good.
Did preparatory followed by Surya Kriya, it's good.
61 points awareness meditation is good. Only third cycle was bit lost.

Breathing meditation is good. Just being aware of my breathe, my body. There is a presence. Not sure how. Once I m awareness, a certain quiet joy arise, a kind of happy contentment.
Did longer.

Shakti was okay with little tots. Shambavi was good. Wish I got more time to sit in silence contentment.

Just changed the alarm to 3.40 am cos time not enough. Three minutes seems insignificant but it's much. Don't want to create any resistance.

Looking forward to the Rudrash. I want to protect the energy created from sadhana. 

Just informed sisters on keeping the current house. They are okay.
I m grateful that I m financially able to keep two house. Financially able to keep family situation status quo while I have my own personal space. This is a breakthrough. For me to overlook my need for more money. Money is no longer a security for me. What's important is that my family stay connected.

Yoga the science of living by Osho
There are two states - manifest and unmanifest. U are beyond them. U are the witness. Through the gap between the tots, u will have the first glimpse of it. Then go on gathering those gaps, go on piling those gaps. And whenever two gaps are there, they become one. Two gaps cannot be two.So go on piling the gaps.