Five of Diamonds - change of value

Mar 4

Yes me keeping the family house on my own seems unfair. Perhaps this the Six of Hearts card.
And the payback is in money form, my issue.
Perhaps by keeping the house it build my confidence in not having to keep money as security.
So again meant to be. It is only when I resist I see it as unfair or victim or suffering.

So this one I learned from C yesterday.

Spoke to mom again this morning. Asking her whether she is now okay with me keeping the big house. She said okay but her preference would be for me to rent out the condo and we stay in the current house for a few years and then rent it out and shift to condo.
She said keeping two house is waste of money. She also said time wasted in going to two places.
Yes, from monetary point of view..yes.
From my satisfying my value of having a private space with balcony and pool. A place where I can entertain my friends..priceless.

Just the same rationale as me having a 3 days job. Logically not financially sensible but my freedom of time is priceless and I am happy.

So I be happy with living in the condo too.

Mmm ..just checked my asset again..more than what I tot..so extra buffer..need not worry about renovation costs. Actually in the first place don't have to worry...just the money asset going down only..

This is the best antidote..forcing me to choose between money asset or happiness asset.
I truly do have money issue.
The first to help me to let go was Z.
He helped me to take out money to do renovation to my bedroom..it was such turmoil to me..but done and I enjoy my expensive looking bathroom and lovely bedroom.
Then he helped me in buying a big car...It was a dilemma during purchase..but I enjoyed the big car.
And now I am buying a condo and yet keeping the house..the dilemma is much lesser vs those earlier episodes eventhough amount is much bigger..

Focus on what I gain..instead of what I lost. And what I lost is not something that I even use..or aware..it is just for emotional security purpose, not even for real financial security.