Trying to practice Samyama

Feb 29 eve
Saw the mail from ex boss. He is on the hunt again to find revenue to cover his back. Can see my defenses coming up. Hold myself back. Remind myself to go for win win situation.
Got myself to focus on the gap. It helped.
After awhile the projection stops.


Destiny
Jack of Diamonds (financial success through salesmanship or creativity, initiation into higher values)
Three of Spades

This card can represent a businessman or associate with whom u have obligations or problems. This can be a karmic rship, one that requires hard work and patience for success.
Creative projects to make money may seem a burden to you but this is necessary part of establishing urself and ur future success. U will have success now but u will need to work hard for it.

Be on the lookout for Diamonds suit especially those who are younger or may be approaching you from either a romantic or creative view point. These are likely to be burdensome.

Soul
Earlier I tot it was Z but there were little difficulties..infact when I saw Z and wife, it was settlement. I am now able to face his wife. Also planned to visit his place in a few weeks time.No more sadness and very little envious feeling.
Just see that they are meant to be.....and we are not meant to be.
Thats all.
I can now see that we were never meant to be.
So..now alas the Saturn is actually the ex-boss. He has Ten of Diamonds Ruling card.
He is now working on creating revenue from the books.


Yoga the science of living by Osho
When u look into the gaps, the crowd of ur tots which has disturbed ur being so completely, by and by goes away, far away and ur inner stream of consciousness starts settling. This is the gradual settling of distractions and the simultaneous rising of one-pointedness.

Soul
Samyama is the key.
Meanwhile just be aware of my breathe and focus on the gaps. Been a few hours no tots of ex boss. Just release my defense's and remember he is just trying to salvage his own; not trying to attack. So focus on win win.
Besides no one is worth the distraction.

Yoga the science of living
When u r full of tots too much, u are not one man. U r not one consciousness; u are almost a crowd, a multitude. When there are tots and ur gestalt is to look at the tots, u are divided; u are divided as many parts as there are tots to ur mind. Each tot becomes a division of ur being. U become polypsychic; u r not unipsychic. U are not one, u are many. U are almost mad.

Soul
This is the Schizophrenia card.
Ever since I stopped doing Plough back or shoulder stand and with the corrected cat stretch I become more balanced. Less frequency of going into schizo tots.

Yoga the science of living
The whole misery of man is that he is running in many directions simultaneously - absolutely undecided, indecisive, not knowing where he is going, not knowing what he is doing. U go on missing because ur target goes on changing.

Soul
When I saw his mail and defense mechanism starts. I just decided that I want peace most of all. I need not win all. I need not make him lose. What I need is peace. That's make me tot of win win situation. Rather instead of attacking him. Be neutral and just state our position.