Reflecting on why I resign from previous job

Mar 11 eve
Just did pooja.
It was nice, feeling at home with my shrine. Tot of going to ashram to get clarity but ashram is already here with me.

My apprehension is fear. Fear that I can't do the job.
Fear that I let go of current company, no more back up if I fail.

On my 3 days week, memory comes back. It was because the budget couldn't accommodate me back cos we recruited a new mid level headcount. We had to retrench another junior. I can only come back on 3 days.

On why I left former boss, E. Cos I can't deal with the conflict. I was reporting to him, so no way out. That time I still can't voice out my feeling in personal rship. Between me and E, there is a personal element.

On my prayer I can do weekend. And every evening my sadhana is mainly Shoonya and breathing meditation.

So decision is made I will go provided I get my good money for the challenges. I get my one day off weekly basis. Up to me how to use it.
I get the authority to do my job without interference. I get my former boss support too. If E doesn't want me to be his working partner, it won't work.

My this year Jupiter card materialising.

Destiny
Eight of Clubs
Ur power of mind can bring u much success with money and business at the same time. The proper application of education and knowledge will bring u noticeable success with ur business and people dealings.
Ur mental gifts are the source of ur greatest benefits at this time.
Success among group of people is indicated, such as meeting or places where u speak or teach. U have more power than usual now. Use it wisely for popularity and profits.
This is probably the best influences for increasing financial gains this year, so be sure to take advantage of it. It works especially for increasing financial gains this year, so be sure to take advantage of it. It works especially those who have some business of their own. But even if u are employed by someone else, ur mental power could bring u a promotion or some form of greater success.


Eight of Spades
This is the strongest symbols of business and personal power and success. At this time u will either expand ur operations or make some invaluable connections with some large company that increases ur own financial power appreciably. This is also one of the best signs of good health and recovery from any and all problems u may be facing.  U can overcome all obstacles now through honest effort and integrity.

U r in the midst of cycle of prosperity.