North Node in Taurus - born looking for soul mates

Feb 19 eve
Did Sannidhi pooja. Just feel good. Nothing intense.
Did one cycle of Linga Struthi and just basked in her presence.
Shoonya was deep.
Did cat stretch followed by a short breathing meditation. Nice.

Feeling good with family. Came back from coffee at mall. Tomorrow other family members are back. House be packed.
Looking forward to the shift.

Just now when family was talking about long live in couple and then the guy marries another gal. A shot of sadness comes in, me with Z for nearly two years and he found his wife in the spate of one month after our break up. Anyway I squirt the tots. It is over and my case is different as Z and I are not meant to be. Being with Z won't give me what I need.

North node in Taurus by Jan Spiller

They are born looking for their soul mates. This can lead to promiscuity during their youth, with a tendency to jump into rships too quickly because they want the bonding so intensely. Their challenge in this lifetime is to focus less on bonding and more on building their own values - then they will attract the right mate.

Deep in their heart, more than anything else in the world, they want a soul mate - that special person to travel with through life in a state of mutual vulnerability, commitment and empowerment. To have this dream come true, they need to first experience being complete within themselves. When they no longer need another person to make them feel whole, only then they can attract the right life partner.

Soul
Suddenly a tot came. I had much difficulty in getting my partner cos having one while I have not find my true self is not good for me. It is not a case of me being shortlisted to be without partner, without being loved. It is not me that's unlovable. It is not a reflection of my unlovability.
It is because I have not find my true self so all the partners are not right for me and hence must be let go of.
Universe wants the best for me, wants the right partner for me. And it's only when I m living my true self, giving myself what want instead of waiting for another that I can be ready.
Most others who has partners their issue is not the same as me. Either their true self are not meshed with others or they need the partner to bring out their true self.

A tot came, maybe that's why I have Ruling of Ace that enable me to be alone. Always looking for new values until I found my Destiny values of being Queen of Diamonds. So it is not a handicap that I can be alone, that I m independent that I m not the attracting type. Everything is to help me, to prevent me from having my partner until I m ready.

This is a real breakthrough. For the first time seeing that me not having my mate is a blessing rather than a curse. Finally seeing is not that I m unlovable. It is because I search for love outside.

North node in Taurus
They feel acutely lonely sometimes, aching for their mate. They long for the comfort of consistent, dependable companionship and this is a lifetime where loyal companionship is their birthright.
But as with everything else in this incarnation, they must earn it.
As they work to experience their own wholeness and direction and become a powerful river in their own right, they can merge with another powerful river that is going in the same direction and together they can flow to the sea.


Soul
Amen.